Saturday, October 9, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 12

I Need You


Your hug
Your touch
Your smile
Your tears
Your breath
Your look
Everything about you...
I can't keep my heart from being silent...

--

“I miss you so much that it hurts.”

He walked up to her, and gave her a hug. As he touched her body, a lump was formed on her throat. The tears involuntarily fell from her eyes. “All I wanted is to find time with my best friend... and... and you can't give that to me. Why does he have to take you away from me? Why did you have to forget me, Ella?” he asked. She opened her mouth to speak, but she felt too weak to even answer.

She wanted to say that she didn't forget him.
He was the one who forgot.
She wanted to say that she didn't let him take her away from him.
She let her feelings take herself away from her best friend.
She wanted to say that she wanted to take back the lost time with him.
He was to busy to even find time for her.
She wanted to say that she miss him too, and it hurts more than he feels.
But it will only give way to what her heart truly feels.

Chun released her, and she immediately turned her back on him, so that he won't see the tear in her eyes. And she successfully hid those tears from him. “This is not a good time to be mushy, Chun. Finals are coming soon, and I'm really busy right now.” she said in a stern voice. His shoulder slumped upon hearing how emotionless she is towards him now. Before, when they have not seen each other even for a day, she would run up to him, give him a bear hug, and tell him how much she missed him. Now, the Ella before her seems not to care about him anymore. “Ella...” he said in a low voice.

She wiped the tears from her eyes, and faced him again. This time, her face seemed serious, as if masking how she truly feels. “Aren't you supposed to be working on your grades as well? How can you get in to that university and take the same major as me? You know that the standards at St. Thomas University is so high, especially at the Architecture department. I think you're slacking off.” she said. “Can you for once stop obsessing about college, Ella? We have to talk. We haven't talked for ages.” Chun said in a frustrated tone. “All I can see is that you're spending way too much time with Tiffany and not working on your grades, Chun. I'm not like you. Even though I am dating Lego, it doesn't mean that I'm forgetting my studies.”
“Stop taking about it, Ella. Please...”
“I'm busy. You should be too. Why am I the only one who cares about this whole shit?”
“Ella...”
“Oh, maybe you realized you didn't want to be an architect anymore. It's OK, I understand. Sp, are you gonna take the same major as Tiff now?”
“Ella...”
“Yeah, or maybe you decided not to go that university anymore, huh?”
“Ella! I said stop it!”

He pulled Ella to him, his forehead leaning to hers. His finger silenced her lips. “Didn't you just realize what I just said?” he asked in a low, hurt tone. “I missed you... I missed my best friend... I missed spending after school hours with her. I missed having long talks with her about our day in school... about our dreams, about our crazy thoughts. I wanted to ask her, ' how are you doing?' 'how are you and Lego' 'is Lego treating you good?' 'if he hurt you or make you cry, I will definitely break his neck'. I want to tell her, 'hey, remember that dream house you sketched a few years back? Promise me I'll be the one who'll build it' or 'hey, I saw the cotton candy man a while ago at the park, and I remember how you looked like when you choked on the cotton candy we bought from him back in 3rd grade'.”

She looked into Chun's eyes, and she could see his pain. She felt guilty, because she caused that pain to him. “I... I just want us to talk... that's all. I feel that since you and Lego have been together, you have been neglecting me, not wanting to spend time with me. All I'm asking is just a minute of your time...” he said. She wanted to hug him tight, and say sorry for avoiding him.

“You and Tiffany had a fight, didn't you?” she asked. Chun was surprised at her question, too surprised that he let her go. “What made you think that we fought?” he asked in an angry tone. “Because you need me.”
“I have always needed you!”
“Yeah, you do. When you have problems, I'm the one who always fix it. That's my role in your life, right?”
“Do you really think of me that way? Do you think I always come to you whenever I wanted something from you? How can you think lowly of me?”
“Because all my life, it has always been like that, Chun!”

He stared at her sadly as he brushed his hair with his fingers. “You're right... I've always depended too much on you... especially whenever I have problems. Don't worry, I'll fix this on my own, do that you won't have to worry about me anymore...” he said. Weakly, Chun turned his back on her, and walked away. She could only watch sadly as he walked away. She pushed him away again and she knew it was wrong. She wanted to follow him and apologize, but she can't bring herself to. “I'm so sorry, Chun...” she said softly. “I'm so sorry...”

--

Lego stood at the center of the empty hall. He clutched his back as he looked at his watch, waiting for someone to come. Then, he heard footsteps. He looked by the door, and he saw Chun walking up to me. “What do you want to talk about, that we have to talk here, and not at the classroom?”Lego asked as soon as Chun got near him. Chun took an envelope from his back pocket, and handed it to him. “You dropped this.” he said. Lego looked at the envelope, and was shocked to see that it was hi acceptance letter from Boston University. “Congratulations for passing. So, you're going to stufy there?” Chun asked. Lego sighed, and snatched the letter from his hand. “You read this?” he asked angrily. “I was curious.”

He put the letter inside his bag, and attempted to leave, but Chun stopped him by holding his arm. “Does Ella know?” Chun asked worriedly. “This isn't something that I have to tell her right away.” Lego said. Chun glared at him. “My best friend is your girlfriend...” Chun hissed at him. Lego glared back at him. “That's the point. You are just Ella's best friend. I am her boyfriend, and I will tell her things when I want to tell her too, at the right time, at the right moment. This isn't something that you can interfere with.” Lego said in a matter-of-fact tone. “If it's something that will break Ella's heart, then I have every right to interfere.” Chun replied in a firm tone. Lego could only give him a smirk. “Why do you care? If I hurt her or not... it's none of your business... if I stay and be with her, or leave her and study abroad, you don't give a damn.” Lego said.

Chun tightened his grip on him, glaring angrily at his friend. “Ella has the right to know what your decision is.”
“Why do you care? You have already abandoned her, right?”
Chun was taken aback by what he said. “I never abandoned my best friend.” he said, turning away from Lego. “Did you know that she love vanilla ice cream?” Lego said. This time, Chun faced him with a puzzled look on his face. “It's her favorite, right? But she still orders strawberry ice cream. Why? Because of you. Because she knew you would want to have a taste of it, even if you're allergic to it.” Lego said. Slowly, Chun let go of his arm. “She still thinks snowpuff from time to time. She's the dog you gave her right? Have you seen the sad look on her face whenever you wait outside the school gate for Tiffany? When she comes for you and the two of you leave without even waving goodbye to her? Have you seen how frustrated she is trying to answer her math assignment without anyone's help? You never knew a thing about your best friend anymore, Chun. You know why? Because you were too blinded by Tiffany that you barely noticed her existence.” Lego said.

He felt guilty after hearing what Lego said. He's right, he have taken Ella for granted. “And do you know why she chose me? Because I was giving her the attention she needed from you. So don't tell me that I'll be hurting Ella if I leave. Don't assume that if I leave, Ella will cry her heart out. Believe me, she's stronger that you think think she is. And she'll understand if I will tell her that I have to leave...” Lego added. He gave Chun one last glarem and then left him to ponder about all the things he said.

--

Saturday came.

Ella and Lego walked inside the cafe, and found Tiffany and Chun together. “Finally! You guys are here!” Tiffany said. She jumped out of her chair, and gave Ella a hug. Ella just smiled faintly at her. “So, shall we go now? Movie starts in 30 minutes!” Tiffany said excitedly. Ella just nodded her head. They followed Chun and Tiffanny outside then they entered the mall. Ella sighed as they tailed the two. “Why did we agree to go with them?” she asked in an irritated tone. Lego just looked at her, and sighed. Then, he forced a smile on his face. “Hey, this is gonna be fun, baby. We haven't actualy went out on a real date, and a double date with Chun and Tiffany could be fun.” Lego said. “I'm not comfortable around them... it's like they are so caught up with their own little world, as if no one ever exists.” she commented. “Or is it because you're jealous of Tiffany?” Lego asked.

Ella paused, and looked at Lego. “You don't have to deny it Ella. You still love Chun. It's not easy to forget your love for him in a span of two weeks.” Lego said. She looked away from him, feeling guilty because of what he said. “I'm trying my best to stay away from him.”
“Sometimes avoiding the one you love just to forget your feelings for him does not help at all. Absence makes the heart grow fonder.”
“I don't love him anymore.”
“Then can you tell me that you love me?”

Ella looked at him again. She stared at him for a long time. As she was about to open her mouth to say something, Tiffany called them. “Ella, Lego! Come on, we've got the tickets!” Tiffany said. Lego could only sigh in frustration. “Let's not talk about this first, Ella. Can we enjoy this date first? I know you're not comfortable being with them, but this is also our date...” he said. “I'm sorry...” she said as she lowered her head. Lego lifter her chin, and smiled at her. “Forgiven. Come on, let's go, all right?” he said. Ella smiled at him, and nodded her head.

They decided to buy some popcorn before getting inside the cinema. “One cheddar cheese flavored popcorn please!” Both Chun and Ella said at the same time. They looked at each other, then Ella became awkward and looked away from him. “Ca you put in an extra butter and flavor on the other popcorn?” Chun said. Upon hearing that, Ella looked at him, and glared at him. She hated him for knowing what she liked with her popcorn. “Here you go.” the attendant said. They both reached for their money, and as Ella was about to pay for it, Chun gave the attendant the money. “This is for the two popcorn.” he said. “I didn't ask you to pay for my popcorn.” Ella said in an annoyed tone. “Well, you're welcome.” he said. She snatched the popcorn, and stomped her way inside the cinema. Chun could only shake his head as he watched her best friend get annoyed with him.

After watching the movie, they went to the department store to buy their dresses for the graduation ball. Tiffany took a black haltered gown from the rack, and tried it on. While waiting for Tiffany, Chun was looking around. He noticed that Ella was having a hard time finding a dress for herself. Then, at the corner of his eye, he saw a pink off-shoulder dress for her. He took it, and then walked up to her.

“Try this one.”

Ella looked at the two guys beside her, who was handing her a dress. On her left is Lego, who is handing her a peach tube dress, and on her right is Chun, who have a pink off-shoulder dress on his hand. Ella chose to ignore Chun, and took Lego's dress. “Thanks, baby!” she said. She walked towards the fitting room, and left the two alone. “Nice choice, by the way.” Lego said. Chun glared at him. “That dress is too revealing for her. Ella never wear those kind of dress!” Chun said. Lego just smirked at him. “Then, shall we wait till she's in that dress?” Lego said.

Minutes have passed, and Tiffany came out of the fitting room to show them how she looked like in her gown. “What do you say, hon?” she asked as she twirled around. Chun gave her a satisfied smile. “You look great on that gown.” he said. Tiffany smiled at him. “Thanks baby! Where's Ella?” she asked. “She's inside, trying out a dress.” Lego said.

After a while, Ella got out of the fitting room. “How do I look?” she asked. Chun looked her way, and in an instant, he was mesmerized with the way his best friend looked. “You look great! You... you look so sexy!” Lego commented. Upon hearing that, Chun looked angirly at Lego. He felt that he is now respecting Ella with his comment. “Go and get another dress. It's too revealing for you.” Chun ordered. Ella ignored him. “I'm going to get this one then.” she said. “Ella! You can't do that! It's too revealing for you!” Chun said angrily. Ella acted as if she didn't heard him, and went back to the fitting room to change.

There was an awkward silence between the two for a long time after that. “What's wrong?” Tiffany aksed. “My girlfriend seems not to be in the mood.” Lego answered. Chun could only glare at him. “It's your fault. You shouldn't have given her that dress.” Chun said. It was Ella's turn to glare at him. “Who gave you the right to blame my boyfriend for every action I'm doing?” she asked him. Chun looked angrily at him. “I can't understand you. Why are you acting as if you're not enjoying our company?”
“I certainly enjoy Tiffany and Lego's company, thank you very much.”
“You're acting as if I don't exist!”
“Oh, you do exist? Am I ignoring you?”
“You've been like that since we bought popcorn! What the hell is wrong with you? Is it wrong now to tell the popcorn guy how you want your popcorn to be?”
“Did I give you the permission to?”

Tiffany's eyes shifted from Chun to Ella and back as they snap back at each other. “Are you fighting?” she asked. “No!” the two of them shouted angrily at her. This shocked Tiffany the most. Ella glared at him upon seeing her reaction. “What?” she asked. “Who told you to shout at my girlfriend?”
“Oh, am I the only one who shouted at Tiffany like that?”
“Chun, Ella, stop it. You're acting like kids!” Lego said.
“I don't understand you anymore, Ella...” Chun said.
“Who told you to understand me, anyways?” Ella said.
“I don't find a reason for you to act this way towards me, Ella...” Chun said.

Ella folded her arms, and took a deep breath. “If you have a problem with me, then just tell me, will you?” Chun said. Ella gave him one last glare. Then, she stood up from her seat and walked out to the street. “Chun! Why are you like that to Ella!” Tiffany said angrily. Chun couldn't answer her. “I'm going after her.” Lego said. As lego was about to stand up, Chun got out of his seat, and decided to follow her. Lego could only watch sadly as Chun chase her best friend.

“Ella! Ella!” Chun shouted at her. Ella is still pissed off at him. She did not head his call, and continued on her way. “Ella Chen! Stop walking, will you!” Chun shouted at her. “Go away!” Ella shouted back at him. She made another step, and was about to cross the the street, when a car sped her way. She almost got hit by it, but Chun was quick and pulled her back to the safe side of the street. Soon, she found herself in his arms. She looked up at him, and she saw him staring at her with tenderness and concern. His gaze could only melt her heart, but she knew she have to keep her anger for Chun still, so that he will stay away from her. “What are you thinking, crossing the street like that? What if that car hit you? Do you know what would happen to you if you got hit by that car?!” Chun said in a worried tone. Ella pushed Chun away from her with all her might. “Stop caring for me, all right?!” Ella shouted at him. Chun was surprised at what she said. “I don't need you, Chun! Not anymore. I don't need you to protect me, or to tell me what the hell to do with my life. I don't need you, period. Stop acting like you're my big brother, and just go on with your life!” she shouted again.

She turned her back on her, and folded her arms. She wished that what she said or did would be enough for Chun to leave her alone. Then suddenly, she felt his arms wrap around her. “I do... I need you...” he whispered to her. With that, she felt herself stiffen. Her body seems to have melted when he touched her. “If you leave this world, then what about me? I don't know why you're mad at me, but even if you hate me forever, I... I could never leave you like this... I would still need you even if you don't need me anymore...” he said. She turned to face him. She bit her lips as she noticed the tear in his eyes. Then, Chun pulled her into a hug.

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Saturday, October 2, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 11

Heart’s Longing

I said to myself that I will learn to love him
That he’s more than enough for me
Because he loved me like no other…
But…
Why does my eyes kept on looking for you?
Why does my lips kept on speaking your name?
Why does this heart only beats for you?

--

He took a deep breath, and then reached for the hand of the girl walking beside him. He looked at her, and shyly smiled. They’ve been together for a week now, and he can’t believe that he’s finally with the girl he likes the most. He felt like the luckiest guy on earth, having to walk side by side with this angel. She looked up at him, and let out a cheeky smile. “Ice cream?” she asked. He let out a laugh. As always, Ella would ask him to treat her for some ice cream. “You bet.” He said.

Lego and Ella sat on their usual spot at the ice cream parlor. Secretly, he would glance at Ella as she takes her time reading the menu. “Strawberry ice cream… definitely, it’s gonna be strawberry ice cream again.” He thought with a smile. Whenever they stop by for ice cream, even if Ella is tempted to taste all those wonderful ice cream flavors, she always ends up ordering her classic favorite. Then, the waitress came, and took their orders. “Strawberry ice cream for me.” Ella said. Lego could only smile, for he got it right again. “And you, Lego?” she asked. “I’ll have choco mint this time.” He said.

After a while, their orders arrived. Lego watched as Ella excitedly dug in to her favorite ice cream. “Why strawberry?” he asked. Ella looked at him, puzzled at his question. “I know it’s a lame question… but each time we come here to eat, you always order that flavor. So, why is strawberry your favorite?” he asked. “I like color pink.” She said as she put a spoonful in her mouth. Then, she giggled. “Actually, my favorite really is vanilla.”
“So why do you always order strawberry?”
“Chun likes strawberry ice cream. But he’s allergic to it… so whenever we eat ice cream, he always order strawberry for me just so he could have a little of it. I grew to like this flavor anyways.”

Lego felt his smile slowly disappearing from his face, and Ella failed to notice is. “So… Chun likes strawberry ice cream?” he asked in a low voice. “He likes the fact that it’s pink.” She said with a giggle. Even if they’re together now, he felt that Chun is getting in his way to be much closer to Ella. He will always be that ghost that’s always between them. He felt a lump on his throat as he forced a smile on his lips. “I like strawberry ice cream too!” he said. Ella just smiled at him. “Want some?” she asked, offering her cup to him Lego nodded his head, and took a spoonful of it. “Delicioius.” He said as he tasted it. Ella just smiled and continued eating. He leaned back as he watched her with a heavy heart. Maybe winning Ella’s love would be a tough thing to do.

--

“I have an idea!” Tiffany told Ella the next day. Ella looked at her seatmate. “Why don’t we go on a double date this weekend? It would be fun!” she said. Ella just sighed, and shrugged her shoulder. “I don’t know…” she said. Tiffany gave her a puzzled look. “Do you have a plan this weekend with Lego?”
“Not that I know of…”
“Then, it’s settled then! Let’s have a double date this weekend. We can watch a movie, or go to the amusement park, or shop! Hey… graduation ball is coming… we can take that opportunity to shop for something to wear!”

Ella just listened as Tiffany excitedly made the plans for the weekend. She wanted to say no. She wanted to bail out, and lie about having a plan this weekend with Lego. She knew she couldn’t bear seeing Chun and Tiffany, for it would only break her heart even more. Since she got together with Lego, she did her best to avoid her best friend. She knew she’s already at the point of getting over him, and she knew that if she saw him again, she would fall for him over again, and all her efforts to forget her feelings for him would be wasted.

“What do you say, Ella? It would be fun! I can help you find a dress for the graduation ball!” Tiffany said. Ella looked at her again, and let out a faint smile. “I… I’ll think about it, all right?” she said. Tiffany nodded her head, and then went back to her seat.

--

Boston University.

Lego stared at the writing on the envelope he is holding. His hands were shaking as he held it. He knew he have always wanted to get into this university, but he’s scared to leave everything behind, especially Ella.

“Lego, anything wrong?” he heard someone asked. He immediately put the envelope in his back pocket, and turned around. He saw Chun walking up to him. “Nothing.” He said. Chun gave him a worried look. “Did my best friend fought with you?” he asked. Lego shook his head. “We’re perfectly fine…” he answered. Chun just smiled and nodded his head. “Anyway… the girls wanted to go out this weekend. Are you free?” Chun asked. Lego gave him a confused look. “I mean, Tiffany and Ella…”
“Ella haven’t mentioned anything to me yet…”
“Maybe she just forgot. They want us to go on a double dat. And accompany them to buy their dress for the graduation ball.”

Lego nodded his head. “I’m in, don’t worry.” He said. Chun let out a big smile. “Great! I can’t wait to see Ella on Saturday!” he said. “Hey, you know what? Mr. Tang wanted me to help him out with some quizzes. I’ll catch you later, all right?” Lego said. He waved goodbye at Chun, and ran to the faculty room. Little did he know, the letter fell from his pocket, and Chun noticed it. He took the letter from the floor, and looked at it. “Letter from Boston University?” Chun thought. He looked at the direction where Lego is going, and then he stared back at the letter. Curious, he opened it, and was surprised to read it’s content.

--

“Awww… look at that cute puppy!” Ella said as she looked from outside the window of the pet store. She and Lego were taking a stroll that afternoon after school, and they passed by the pet shop. “It’s really cute! Just like you.” Lego said. Ella giggled at him. “Sweet talker!” she said. She looked at the window again, and watched as the puppy plays by himself. “You know what, I used to have a dog…” she began. “She was a pug, and she’s really really cute. I call her Snowpuff. I think she was with me since I was in fifth grade…”

Lego looked at Ella, and saw the sad look on her face. “She was like my second best friend. Every morning, she would jump into my bed, and lick me till I wake up. When I come home from school, I would always play with her. She is very special to me… I thought I could keep her forever… but then one day, Snowpuff got sick. We took care of her, and even had her see the veterinarian… I thought she will get well after that, but then… a few days later… she died…” she said. Lego held her hand as she speaks. “For weeks, I kept on crying for her loss… until one day… I finally stopped.”
“Why?”

Ella smiled at him. “Because I realized that even if she’s gone, she will always be here in my heart. We have memories together. Maybe… maybe Snowpuff became my guardian dog angel…” she said. Lego couldn’t help but laugh at what she said. “And… I’m thankful that for a short period of time, Snowpuff made me happy. Her mission on earth here is over, and that’s why God took her from me.” She said. Lego smiled at her, and cupped her cheeks. “You’re a strong girl…” he said. She shook her head. “I don’t think I’ll get through it all without Chun’s help. He was the one who told me those things. He was by my side when I was grieving for her death… he helped me through it all…” she said.

Lego was taken aback by what she said. He could feel his heart breaking upon hearing her say his name again. “Did you know, Chun was the one who gave me Snowpuff for my 10th birthday. She was like the third member of our gang. He was sad too when Snowpuff died… we both cried together when we found out that Snowpuff died.” She said. Lego just took a deep breath, and tried to smile.

He feels hurt that Ella would always unintentionally speak of something about Chun and their memories. He wanted to get all of her attention, but in the end, she would remember something about him. He couldn’t blame her, after all, they were best friends. But it’s her best friend that’s being a hindrance for him to be much closer to her, and make her love him. He doesn’t even know if he can make her forget her feelings for him, when all she talks about is Chun.

He was silent as they walked home. As they reached her gate, Ella turned to him, and smiled. “Thanks for a wonderful day, Lego.” She said. “I’ll see you tomorrow then...” he said. Ella nodded her head. He leaned down on her, and gave her a kiss on her forehead. “I love you…” he said. She just looked at him. She knew it’s easy to say those words, but she can’t tell him she loves him too, if it’s not what her heart feels. She knew she had been constantly hurting him by not replying, but she doesn’t want to lie to him. “Thank you.” She replied. Lego sighed, and nodded her head. He turned around, and walked away from her, feeling defeated, because for the nth time, he failed to hear those three words from Ella.

Meanwhile, Chun was standing outside his house, watching Ella and Lego together. Still, he couldn’t help but feel jealous whenever he sees them together. What hurts him the most is that as soon as she got together with Lego, she was starting to ignore him. As soon as Lego left, he gathered up his courage, and walked up to her. “Ella…” he called. Ella stopped walking, and turned to face her. She felt her heart beating fast as he got nearer to her. “Hey… how are you?” he asked. She looked away from him, avoiding his eyes. “Why are you avoiding me, Ella? Was there something I’ve done? Was it because of the last time? If you must know… Lego and I talked and – “

“It’s not that, Chun.” Ella interrupted. “I’m… busy… lately… and…”
“Too busy to say hi to your best friend?”
Slowly, Ella looked up at him, and she could see the hurt look on his face. “You’ve been with Lego for more than a week now. You’ve been spending too much time with him…”
“You’ve been spending too much time with Tiff as well…”
“And when I try to get close to you, you avoid me…”
“I… I’m just busy.”

Chun looked into her eyes, and then held her hand. “I miss you…” he said. “I miss you so much… that it hurts…”




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Saturday, September 25, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 10

Green-Eyed Monsters


Why?
I ask myself that question a thousand times...
Why do I love you?
Why do I have to choose you?
Why does it have to be my best friend?
Why is it that every time I look at your face
I could only want you more?
Why can't I be her
And be the one that you love?

--

Chun got out of his house, and found Lego and Ella together. He knew that the two are talking, all right, but there was something in the way Lego held Ella's face. He walked closer to take a look at them.

“Then I'm willing to wait for that day, Ella.” Chun heard Lego said. Confusion clouded his mind as he walked closer. Lego's next actions made him more surprised. He leaned down and gave his best friend a kiss on the lips. He could feel his blood rushing up to his head. He clenched his fist at a sudden feeling of rage upon seeing that scene. Why is he kissing his best friend? Why is Ella letting him kiss her? Is there something going on behind his back?

He felt his eyes dimmed as he tapped his shoulder. Lego looked back, and without any warning, Chun threw a strong punch into his face. "Chun!" Ella shouted at him. She got down on her knees to help Lego up. He came back into his sense, and was surprised at Ella's reaction. She glared up at him as they stood up. "Why?!" she shouted angrily at him. "Why did you have to hit him, Chun? Lego have done nothing to you!" she said.

He have never seen her this mad before. He only hit him because he was doing something unnecessary to her, and he was just protecting her. "Ella, he kissed you!" he defended himself. "I let him kiss me, all right!" she shouted. That made him even more surprised. "Ella! Why? you can't let him kiss you, he's not even your -"

Then he paused. He stared at the two for a long time. Ella was looking worriedly at Lego. "Something is going on behind my back..." he thought. The anger was replaced by sadness upon seeing how close the two are. "Oh..." he muttered under his breath. She was avoiding Chun's questioning gaze. "I don't know what's happening anymore... I have been gone for a while, and then the two of you suddenly got close. I want to be mad, Ella... because I felt like you're replacing me with Lego... and then now... why did he kissed you? Are you two together now?" he asked.

Ella took a deep breath, and bravely faced him. "Yes. Lego is now my boyfriend." she said. Chun paled upon hearing her confirmation. "This... this have all been to sudden... why? I thought... Lego... he liked another..." Chun said. Lego sighed as he looked at his friend. "I just realized that I like Ella. I asked her out. She said yes. I asked her to be my girl, and she agreed." he said nonchalantly.

He glared at Lego. He knew he liked another girl, someone whom he knows that he could never have. He felt as if Lego is just using Ella as a rebound girl. He attacked Lego, and held him by his collar. "Do you think I will allow you to be with Ella, Lego? No way. Ella deserves someone much better, all right?" he said. Ella came to Lego's rescue, and tired to push him away from Lego, whch she did successfully. "Stop interfering with my life, Chun." Ella said. Chun looked at her, and she simply glared at him again. "This is my life. I'll date whoever it is I want to date. And I like Lego a lot. Just let me be happy, all right?" she said.

Chun was taken aback by what his best friend said. “You don't want me to interfere with your life anymore? What's going on, Ella? Are you really that mad at me?” he asked. “I am not mad at you! It's just that... you and me... we both have our different lives now... do you think it's about time that I stop depending on you? You can never be beside me forever, Chun.” she said. He looked at her furiously. “Do you really think that way? Ella, I promised you...”
“It was just a childish promise, OK? That's the truth. One day, the two of us will have to go our separate ways... it's just starting now.”
“No!”
“That's the truth. We'll outgrown each other, Chun. You will have your own life, I will have my own. We need the space to grow...”

Chun looked at Lego, and then back at Ella. “I'm still your best friend, Ella. I don't know why you're acting this way. I just hope that you realize that your actions are hurting me.” he said in a hurt tone. Then, he turned his back and walked away from the two. Ella could only watch as Chun walks away from her. She regret what she have said. It was a wrong move to push her best friend away so that she could forget her love for him. She made a step forward to follow him, but she stopped herself before she could.

She felt Lego's hand hold hers. She looked at him, and there was an understanding in his face. “I won't stop you if you want to run after him, Ella... after all... he is still your best friend...” he said. She shook her head as she let out a faint smile. “This is my start...” she said. “I... I have to stay away from him so that I could unlove him, Lego... and... and you're here...”

--

Chun sat at the edge of his head, with a hurt expression on his face. Ella's words a while ago is still ringing in his ears. Why does he feel that his best friend is leaving him? Why does he feel that she doesn't need him anymore? He knew that since he and Tiffany got closer, Ella and Lego got closer as well. Seeing them together before, he couldn't deny the feeling of being threatened. But now that they are together, he felt even more jealous.

He clenched his fist, he curled up as he leaned his head on his knees. His heart is in pain because of what happened. Just when he found happiness with his dream girl, a mess like this would happen between him and Ella. He was so scared to lose her. He was so scared that he will be forgotten by the girl he was with all his life. “Ella...” he whispered. “We promised... you promised to be always be by my side... why do I feel like you're slipping away from me slowly? Why do I feel like you don't care for me anymore? Do you know how much I need you in my life? I feel like I can't breathe anymore...”

She stared at the picture frame by her bedside. She took it, and stared at his smiling face. “I'm sorry...” she thought. She bit her lips as she let a tear fall down on his picture. “Chun... do you know how much it pains me seeing you each day, as if I don't matter anymore? You have Tiffany know, and I'm left with no one. Before, I was just happy standing beside you and loving you silently, praying that one day you'll see me in a different light... but now...”

Ella closed her eyes as another tear rolled down her cheek. “I've lost you. I've lost you to her... and though I'm beside you, I feel like the distance between us is getting farther. I maybe near you, but I couldn't even let you know how much I do love you... it's hurting me, and I'm getting tired of all this pain. I'm sorry... I'm sorry for staying away from you. I'm sorry that I have to be with Lego... this is for the best, that I know. I can't stay friends with you if my heart keeps on loving you. I can never be the same Ella, your best friend, as long as this feelings stay... I'm sorry... I'm sorry...”

He put his hand on his pocket and let out a sigh. He kicked the can in front of him as he waled. This is supposed to be the happiest day of his life. Ella Chen, the girl he have loved since his first year in high school, have finally given him a chance to love her. He swore to himself that he will do everything to make her forget Chun, but it turns out to be difficult as he thought it to be. There was jealousy in Chun's eyes when he glared at him. There was longing in Ella's eyes as she watched him walk away. And though Ella stayed with him, he felt bad. Everything seems wrong.

Lego stopped walking and let out another sigh. “Ella... you've given me the chance... but why do I feel that you can't open up your heart for me? I wish that you'll look at me in the same way that you look at him. I wish you'll cry for me in the same way you cry for him. I wish I could just be Chun so that you could love me too... why does it have to be him, Ella? He is your best friend, yet he never knew how you really feel? He swore to protect you, yet he left your side the moment Tiffany walked into his life. I've been with you, silently looking after you, trying my best to make you smile, but still...”

He let out another groan. He looked down and saw a pebble by his foot. With all his might, he kicked the pebble away from him. He knew he should be ready for this moment when he asked Ella to be his girl, but he never thought that it would hurt more. And the only thing to do is endure the pain he is feeling.

He strummed on his guitar, playing on that one song again. He hummed along with it, and then suddenly, her innocent face came into his mind. He let out a smile, and just shook her head. Calvin Chen never believed in love at first sight before, but since that day at the chapel, he wants to believe it now. “Will I see you again?” he thought. He reached for his pocket, and took a white handkerchief with her name on it. She left it when she ran away from him at the chapel. When he saw her the following week, he was so shy to approach her and return the hanky to her. He laughed at himself. His friends did laugh at him before.

Being the star singer of the glee club and the main guitarist of their band, Calvin never had problems with girls. He was never shy around girls, actually, except for this high school girl who seem to have stolen his heart the moment their eyes met. “I definitely have to see you again, Ella... I have to...” he said to himself.

--

School have once again ended the next day.

As usual, Ella tailed Tiffany from behind. From the school gate, she could see Chun waiting for her. “Bye Ella! See you tomorrow!” Tiffany said as she waved goodbye. She just smiled faintly and nodded her head. She watched as she ran up to the gate. The moment the two met, she gave Chun a kiss on the lips. Chun smiled happily at him. She didn't want to see that scene anymore. She doesn't want to feel hurt anymore whenever she sees him together. She looked away from them, and decided to wait for Lego.

Chun looked inside the school gate, just In time when Ella looked away from him. He felt a flinch in his heart, seeing her best friend is still mad at him. “Ella...” he thought. He doesn't care anymore who's fault it is, or what have triggered them to be this estranged. He just wished that things can go back to the way they were – before he saw Lego kissing her, before he hit him, before Ella said those hurtful words, before he walked away from her. “Hon, let's go?” he heard Tiffany said. He looked down at her, and smiled. “OK.” he said.

As he put his arm around her, Lego came. The two just stared at each other for a long time. “He's here for Ella...” he thought. Lego sighed, and put his hands on his pocket. Chun looked at him for a long time. They have been friends for a long time, and it would be a stupid mistake to throw away their friendship just because he found out that he and Ella are together now. “She's inside...” Chun said. Lego gave him a puzzled look. Chun let out a sad smile at him. He felt a lump in his throat as he was about to speak again. “Take care of her, Lego. She's... she's too precious for me. If... if you hurt her, I could never forgive you.” he said. Tiffany smiled at Chun, and then looked at Lego. “I'm sure he would take care of Ella. She's in good hands, Chun. Don't worry too much about your best friend.” she said. Chun just nodded his head.

As Chun and Tiffany turned to leave, Lego began to speak. “I will take care of her, Chun.” he said. Chun paused for a while, and listened to him. “I will... love her... more than anything else in this world. I will.” he said. He looked back, and smiled again. “I know you will.” Chun said. As Lego watched them leave, he could feel the pain in his heart once again.

After they left, Ella came out of the school gate. She gave him a smile, and kissed him on the cheek. “I want ice cream.” she said. Lego smiled at her. “You have always loved ice cream.” he said. Then, she looked at Chun's direction. Her smile became a sad one as she stared at his back. She could feel the tears starting to form at the corner of her eyes once more. As Lego held her hand, he looked at her. “Ella...” he thought. “I wish you can only look at me...”





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Saturday, September 18, 2010

Say That You love Me - Chapter 9

Changes


Since that day you kissed me,
I know a lot of things have changed
I knew I loved you more than ever
And I know how wrong these feelings are
And so I had to go on
To move on...
To leave your side silently

--

Chun walked Tiffany home that night after their date. As they reached her door, Tiffany turned to him and smiled. “Thank you for a wonderful night, Chun.” she said. He let out a boyish smile at her. “Thank you for a memorable night, Tiffany.” he said

The evening breeze gently blew to them. They stood still, gazing into each other's night. It was a special night for the two of them, something that they will never forget for the rest of their lives. He walked up to her closely. A gentle smile escaped from his lips as stared into her innocent face. As his face moves closer to her, he felt as if all the air he have sucked up inside have faded. She was breathtakingly beautiful. And her mere presence beside him had this effect on him.

The moment he longed for would come sooner, he knows. As she closed her eyes, he inched into her face once more. He could feel his heart beating fast, and his hands trembling as he held her by her sides. As he closed her eyes, their lips touched. It was their first kiss. With each seconds that their lips touched, he felt as if his world was spinning around. There were fireworks. He could swear he could hear the angels singing around them. He just loved the feeling of being this close to the girl he loves.

As he pulled away from her, he smiled shyly at her. There was silence between them, and they could understand each other with the mere smiles on their faces. “Uhmmm... I have to go inside now, Chun.” Tiffany said. Chun nodded his head. “Good night.” he said. “Good night...” she said sweetly. As she turned to open the door, Chun called her once more. She turned around, and saw him looking at her with love. “I love you, Tiffany.” he said. She let out a sweet smile, and replied. “I love you too, Chun.”

--

Ella heard a loud knock on the door. She turned down the volume of the TV, and stood up to open it. As she opened the door, she was surprised to see Chun smiling happily at her. “C-chun?” she stammered. “Ella!” he exclaimed happily. He grabbed her, and locked her small body into his arms. He hugged her tightly, so tight, that she could feel his heart beating furiously. “C-chun! I can't breath! What happened?” she asked. This time, Chun let her go.

He held her by her shoulders, and looked into her face. “It was the best date I had in my entire life!” he said. Ella sighed as she rolled her eyes. “Oh, please Chun... that's like your first date. You'll have another one of those great dates with Tiffany in the future...” she said. “But this one is the best. It went exactly as planned, and I know that she enjoyed it... and you know what made it more perfect?” Chun said. Ella gave him a puzzled look as she shook her head. “We kissed! I kissed her!” Chun said.

She felt as if someone drained all of her energy upon hearing what he said. Chun was way more excited with his first kiss with Tiffany, than that kiss they shared that afternoon. Maybe it meant nothing for him. After all, it was just kissing lessons for him, but for her, it will be something that she will treasure forever. She never regret that she gave her first kiss to her best friend, and the boy that she will always love.

She faked a smile to hide her sadness. “That's... good. At least the lessons paid off.” she said. She let out a nervous laugh. Seeing smile at her once more made her ever more nervous. “Thank you, Ella. I'm happy now because of all the things you've done for me. If it wasn't for you, I won't be able to meet the girl of my dreams, have her, date her, kiss her...” he said. Ella let out another nervous laugh. “Aiyo, stop it! I only did what a good best friend would do anyways. I...” She took a deep breath as she tried to smile. “I'm happy for you. Seeing this way, I'm contented. At least there's someone who loves you in the same way that you love them...”

He smiled. He took her hand, and pulled her into another hug. “For everything that you have done and will do for me in the future, Ella... thank you. I wish I could give you the same happiness that I am feeling right now...” he whispered to her. She was fighting the urge to let the tear roll down her cheek. “Then love me, Chun... love me... choose me... say that you feel the same way for me... because it's hurting me so much to see that I'm losing you... that giving you your own happiness is breaking my heart...” she thought.

She pulled away from him, afraid that he would finally see through her. She faked another smile as she pushed her away. “Now stop being too mushy, and go home.” she said. “But... but... I still want to talk to you!” Chun protested. “We'll talk tomorrow. We both need a shut eye!” she said. She yawned and stretched out her hand. “All this TV marathon makes me sleepy. I'll see you tomorrow, all right?” she said. Chun sighed, and nodded his head. “Fine, tomorrow. Good night, Ella.” he said. He walked up to her, and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

That left her into a daze. She touched the part of her cheek that he kissed as she watched him leave. “Why does unloving you seems so hard, Chun? Why is it that when I found the reason to stop wanting you, you give me a reason to love you even more?” she thought.

“Mei...”

She looked back, and she saw her sister walking up to her. “Jie... it's nothing. Just a friendly kiss.” she said defensively. Joe let out a sigh as she shook her head. “But it's still a kiss, Ella. I don't want to see you kissing your best friend because I know it's hurting you more. And look... he have a girlfriend that he obviously love. You have to stop this, mei...” Joe said in a worried tone. Ella closed the door, and walked past her sister. “This will pass, jie. One day, I will start seeing him again as Chun... that little boy with drools when he sleeps.” she said with a laugh.

Joe looked sadly at her little sister. “You're only hurting yourself, Ella...” she said. Ella stopped, and looked at her sister. “I know...” she said. “You deserve someone better... someone who can love you more. And sadly, Chun is not the one that could love you. Chun only sees you as a friend. Do you think it's about time that you give other people a chance to love you as well?” she said. Ella just stared at her sister, pondering at what she just said.

--

It was Monday afternoon, and the class have ended.

Ella gathered all her things, and then turned to Tiffany. “Hey, Tiff... I think we should start with the research today. We can go to the library...” Ella said. Tiffany looked at her with a surprised look on her face. “Oh my God! I totally forgot about it!” she said. “It's OK... good thing I reminded you about it.” she said. Tiffany sighed, and shook her head. “Ella, can we schedule it at another time? Chun and I are going to the mall today... we already planned to meet up after school.” she said.

Any trace of emotion on Ella's face have disappeared upon hearing what she said. “But... we need to start on our research...” she said. “I know that, Ella... sorry I forgot, but I can't ditch my boyfriend. You understand, don't you?” she said. She looked at her, and she was giving her a sweet smile. She wanted to protest. She wanted to tell her that nothing is more important than making sure they'll pass Chinese History together. But there's nothing she can do, for it's Chun's happiness that's at stake.

“Fine.” she said in a stern voice. Tiffany's face lightened up, not hearing the hint of anger in Ella's tone. “I'll do the research today. I'll give you the topics that I'll be having a hard time with.” she said. “Don't worry, Ella! I'm sure Chun will help us out.” Tiffany said. “i don't want to be that dependent on him.” she muttered under her breath. Just then, she felt Tiffany hugging her. “Thanks, Ella! I promise to make up to you! You're a really good friend.” Tiffany said.

Before she went to the library, she walked Tiffany by the school gate. As soon as she saw Chun, she waved goodbye to her, and ran to him. Chun didn't even bother to wave hi to her. He was so caught up upon seeing Tiffany. She watched as he kissed her on the lips. She watched as he put his arms around her. She watched as he leaves her.

From now on, a lot of things will change, especially between them. She knew that the promise of forever he made to her is finally broken. He doesn't need her now, she thought. He already have Tiffany. He's happy with her. Someone else have came first in his life now. She is not his priority anymore. She is just a second best for him. He doesn't see her the way he did before, because he only have his eyes on Tiffany, and it hurts her the most. Her best friend is slowly taking her for granted, and she's scared that one day, she will lose him, and that he will be nothing but a stranger for her.

It was almost dusk when she finished. When she got out of the school gate, she found Lego standing, waiting for her. “Lego...” she said in a soft voice. He took a deep breath, and walked up to her. “I waited for you.” he said. Then, he let out a faint laugh. “I told myself I won't care about you anymore. But I can't bring myself not to. You're too special for me... I feel that it's my job now to look after you.” he said. There was an awkward silence between them. Then, he turned his back on her. “Come on, I'll walk you home, Ella.” he said.

Ella followed behind him. The whole time, Lego was not speaking to her. She could understand that he's still mad because she rejected him. But she have to be true to herself. She loves Chun, and she can't be with him. As they walked home, her thoughts were filled up with a lot of thoughts. Maybe, if Chun knew how she felt, he would do the same thing as she did – and that is to reject her love. She knew how she have hurt Lego, and she knew that she would feel the same way if Chun did the same thing.

“You're only hurting yourself, Ella...”

When she secretly loved Chun, she right from the start that it would hurt her. But she never thought that it would hurt her more, especially when Tiffany came into their lives. She wasn't ready for all the pain and heartaches that's associated with her unrequited love.

“Chun only sees you as a friend”

At least before, he sees her. Now, it's as if he was too blinded by Tiffany. She had long accepted the fact that they could never be together. That they will only be friends – best friends. But after that kiss, it changed everything. She wanted to be selfish. She wanted him by herself. But she couldn't do that... she loves Chun too much that hurting him would cost her heart.

“ it's about time that you give other people a chance to love you as well”

Her thoughts were interrupted when she realized that she was already in front of her house. “We're here.” Lego said. He turned to her and smiled. “You're home safe and sound, princess.” he said. She looked into his eyes, and she saw the familiar pain reflecting before her. She felt guilty. She wished she could do something to take it all away. “I'll get going now, dork. Hope to see you tomorrow.” he said.

She didn't utter a word as he walked past her. Then, she remembered something that her sister said. “You deserve someone better...” She looked at Lego as he walked away. He love her, she know that. He could give her all the love she ever wanted, and all she have to do is give him a chance. Maybe one day, she will learn to love him with all his heart.

“Hey...” she called. He looked back. She smiled as she walked up to him. As she stood in front of him, she lowered her head. “I'm sorry... for the last time...” she said in a soft voice. “I understand... you don't have to apologize...” he answered. “I know what you're feeling, because I'm feeling it too. And I know, it's unfair of me to reject you...”
“Chun will always be the one in your heart, and I understand. All I can do is be a friend to you...”

She looked up at him. And just like before, there was a spark of hope in his eyes. “I don't want to love him anymore...” she said softly. A tear fell from her eye as she speaks. “It... it has been hurting me constantly... and I don't want to feel this pain anymore.” she said. He cupped her cheek with his palm, and wiped the tears from her eyes. “Can I take away your pain? Can I try to make you unlove him?” he asked with a hopeful tone. She closed her eyes, and nodded her head. “Yes...” she said.

“I'm giving you the chance, Lego.”

He felt a tear fall down from his cheek. He smiled as he held her face. “You won't regret a thing, Ella...” Lego said. “I'll do my best so that you could forget your feelings for him. I'll always make you smile, the way that he does. I can be his replacement, his substitute... just be with me. I promise that...” he said. Ella held on to his hand, and smiled. “You don't have to do all those things, Lego. Just stay with me... I know one day I will learn to love you.” she said. Lego nodded his head. “Then I'm willing to wait for that day, Ella.” he said. He leaned down on her, and gave her a soft kiss on the lips. Then, he stared into her face.

Just then, someone tapped his shoulder. He looked back, and saw Chun looking furiously at him. The next thing he knew, Chun punched him in the face.




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Sunday, August 8, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 8

A Fool's Kiss


You know I'd do anything for you
You know, I'd a make a fool of myself just for you
Loving you had made me feel like I'm the most stupid girl in this world
Because even if there is someone right here
Willing to love me unconditionally...
I still choose to love you...
And it's killing me inside.

--

“Ella! Ella!”

Ella looked back, and saw Chun running up to her. He had this happy smile on his face, and that smile is her proof that we she had plan had succeeded. “Hey, Chun.” she greeted with a smile on her face. As he got near her, he pulled her into a hug. “Thank you...” he said to her. “Thank you for making this the happiest day in my life. Thank you for your help. Thank you because if it wasn't for you, I will not be able to meet Tiffany. And if it wasn't for you...” He let go of her, and smiled at her. “If you didn't ask me to come to the park and threatened me, if you didn't send Tiffany this afternoon, then maybe... I would have lost my chance with her. Thank you, because of you, I had the courage to tell her that I like her. Thank you because you are the reason why we're together now.” he said.

She was expecting that from him, but his confirmation could only break her heart even more. Now, she truly lost the fight. She lost the only boy she loves all her life. She regrets what she have done, but she knows that if she didn't do those things, it would break her heart even more to see Chun sad. She forced a smile on her face. “Congratulations. You deserve it.” she said. He held her hand, ans squeezed it. “I don't know what I'd do without you. You're my lucky charm, do you know that?” he said. Ella slowly nodded her head. “I... I know...” she said. Then, he pulled her into another hug. “Thank you, Ella. You're the best best friend anyone could ever have. I love you so much!” he said.

She wanted to pretend that those five words he said is true, and that he loves her more than a friend. But she knew those words only meant that he loves her as is best friend, and nothing more. She bit her lips, and closed her eyes, trying to stop the tears that were swelling from her eyes. She wanted to stay this way with him. She wanted to keep him in her arms, and never to let him go, but then he was never hers to keep in the first place. For him, she will only be a best friend – the one whom he turns to when he needed help, when he needed companion. Nothing hurts more than the fact that she is just a best friend.

She pulled herself away from Chun, and he could only give her a puzzled look. “I'm so happy for you...” she said, letting out a faint smile. He looked closely at her, and noticed the frail expression on her face. “Are you all right? Why do you look sad?” he asked. She nodded her head. “I am. I... I just don't feel well today. I'm sorry... I'm sorry if you think I'm not happy for you. You know that I am...” she said. He smiled, and shook his head. “No, it's not like that. I thought maybe you feel sick... and I'm right. You better get inside the house and take a rest. I'll see you later.” he said. She nodded her head at him.

Without saying goodbye, she turned her back on him. The smiled abruptly disappeared as she ran inside the house. As she reached up her room, she closed the door behind her. The tears she was trying to hold a while ago suddenly fell endlessly from her eyes. She clutched onto her chest as she felt her heart being torn into a million pieces. “Why?” she asked herself. “Why do I have to break my own heart? Why is it that I have to be in love with my own best friend?” She slid down to the floor, and curled up as she cried her heart out. She have to accept the fact that Chun will never be hers, and that she will have to share him with someone else.

--

Lego sat on the grassy field, his eyes were wandering around. It has been days since he confessed to Ella, and somehow, he still have not gotten over it.

[Flashback]
“Will you give me that chance, Ella? Will you give me the chance to love you?” he asked. His eyes were full of hope as he gazed on her face. He could see the surprised in her eyes. Not only was she surprised, he felt that she was hesitant to answer him. “I...” she muttered. She lowered her head, and slowly shake her head.

That instant, Lego knew what her answer is. He felt his world shattered before him. The bouquet of flowers fell on the ground. He felt weak upon seeing her answer. He wasn't ready for this. He thought that spending as much time as he could with her would make her instantly accept her, but he was wrong. “I'm sorry...” Ella said, looking up at him. “It would be unfair for you, Lego. I can't be with you while I'm loving -”
“Chun.”
She bit her lips, and slowly nodded her head.
[End f Flashback]

He clenched his fist as he remembered that day. It took him a lot of courage to tell her how he feels for her, only to be rejected. He wanted to hate Chun for making Ella fall for him. He wanted to hate him for not seeing her, for neglecting her, and for hurting her. He know fully understand how she feels now. He knew it was hard for Ella, because she can't tell Chun that he loves her, and instead, she helped him get the girl he really loves. “i wish I am Chun... I wish you could love me too...” he thought.

Lego had always known that Ella is in love with Chun. There's no denying whenever her eyes sparkles whenever he's around. She would get out of her way just to be with Chun, even if it means making a fool out of herself. And that's what made him fall for her – her silent efforts to be with Chun made him think that any guy she would love would be lucky to have her, and he wanted to be that lucky guy. When Tiffany came into Chun's life, he started to neglect her. He could see the hurt in her eyes whenever she sees them together. He made a lot of effort to make her smile, to divert her attention. They were always together, and he thought it was the right time to let her know how he feels. But in the end, Ella have hurt her.

“Lego...”

He looked back, and he saw Chun walking up to him. The other boy sat beside him, and he chose to ignore him. “Everyone's worried about you. Why are you so quiet lately?” he asked. He let out a faint smile, and shook his head. “I'm tired of being the class clown.” he said. Chun just laughed at what he said. “I noticed you've been quiet since the day after you said you'll be confessing to the girl you like. You never even told me what happened... want to talk about it.” Chun asked. Lego smiled bitterly as he toyed a grass with his finger. “She rejected me.” he said. Chun suddenly felt sad for his friend. “Oh...” he said. “He is the only girl I've ever liked. I was a fool to believe I would have my chance with her... but... but she can't accept me...” Lego continued. Then, he looked at Chun. “She's in love with someone else.” he said.

“So, this girl have a boyfriend?” Chun asked. Lego shook his head. “She's in love with someone who can't love her back. And worst, the guy she's in love with is her closest friend. That guy is in love with one of her friends... she said... it would be unfair for me if she give me a chance while she's still in love with him. I have no other choice but to let her go.” Lego said. “You're giving up on her?” Chun asked. Lego just shrugged his shoulder. “Part of me wants to give her up, but whenever I see her, I wanted to prove to her that she deserves to be loved as well. I want to be there for her when she's hurt. When she's sad, I want to be the one that will make her smile. But... she chose to reject my love for her...” he said. He let out a chuckle as he smile. “She doesn't seem stronger than she looks to be. She... she's weak. And I want to protect her.” he said.

Chun smiled at him, and put his arms around him. “It seems that you really love this girl. Lego, don't give up on her. Who knows one day, she'll realize that she can only be truly be happy with you. She's one lucky girl to be loved by a clown like you.” he said. Lego laughed, and shook his head. “I don't know... maybe one day I'll try to ask her again. As of now, let me be broken hearted. Not everyone is like you, who gets to be like by a girl that he likes too.” he said. Chun nodded his head. “Some people have luck.” he said. Lego nodded his head. “Yeah...” he said. He let out a playful smirk at him. “You're one hell of a lucky bastard.”

--

Saturday.

Chun walked back and forth by the swing as he waited for Ella to come. His heart was thumping with each second that passes by. “Chun!” he heard her call. He looked back, and smiled at him. “Sorry, I'm late.” she said. “It's OK. I'm glad you're here.” he said. “What kind of help do you need?” she asked him. “Tiffany and I are going out on a date today.”
“And...”
“I need help.”
“With what?”
“With everything.”

Ella couldn't help but laugh at his best friend. “Look, I'm in some way as inexperienced as you are when it comes to going out on a date.” she said. Chun nodded his head in agreement. “That's why I need your help.” he said. She could only give him a puzzled look. “You need help with clothes? Restaurant? Flowers?” she asked. Chun shook his head. “Got all of those things figured out.” he said. She folded her arms, and raised an eyebrow at him. He let out a boyish smile as he scratched his head. “So, what kind of help do you need?” she asked. “You know what they do at a date, right?” Chun said shyly. “Eat out, watch a movie, stroll at the park...” She paused, and looked skeptically at him. “kiss?”

Chun took a deep breath, and nodded his head. “I don't know how. To kiss, I mean.” he said. With that, Ella burst out laughing, much to his annoyance. “Wei!” he said in an annoyed tone. “You don't know how to kiss?” she asked again. She could see her best friend's face turn crimson red because of embarrassment. “Don't you watch porn or something? I swear I saw a stack of CDs on your room the other day.” she teased. “Ella!”
“Fine, fine... what is it about it?”
“I don't know how to kiss a girl properly, and I'm scared that if I kiss Tiff, she would think I'm a lousy kisser. And she might break up with me.”
“A kiss isn't just everything in a date, Chun.”
“But it's something memorable. She is my first girlfriend. Tonight is our first date. We'll have our first kiss. And I want this moment to be memorable for the two of us.”
“So what do you want me to do, teach you how to kiss?”
“Yes.”

Ella was shocked at his answer. She felt her heart racing against her chest. “You're going to steal my first kiss for some lesson?” she shouted at him. “Ella, please don't be mad.” Chun said. “How can I not be mad?! This is insane, Chun!” she said. “Ella, look... don't you think it's a perfect idea. At least I get to be your first kiss, and you're mine as well. You won't have to worry about being sloppily kissed by Joe Cheng.” he teased. This made Ella even more mad. “Chun! I hate you now!” she said.

She turned her back on him, and went back to her house. Chun followed him. “Ella... Ella I'm sorry. OK, I won't ask again... but think of it. We both wanted our first kiss to be memorable.” he defended. “Yeah, yeah... you will get my first kiss because you want to know what it's like to kiss. Thanks, Chun!” she said sarcastically. Chun let out a sigh. As they reached her door, he held her hand, and she turned to face him. “Maybe I want to kiss you first. Maybe I've always wanted to kiss you. Ella, you're my best friend. I'm the guy who's always comes in first in your life. And this kiss... this first kiss... it's something special... and it's something I want to give to my best friend. Because you... you will always be special to me. Do you understand now?” he said.

She looked into his eyes, and he could see the sincerity in his eyes. “Why... why me?” she asked. “Because you are the very first girl in my life.” he said with a smile. She looked away from him, hesitating whether she'll agree with what he wants, or not. She knew in her heart that this is all that she have ever wanted, but she also knew that if she kissed him, it will break her heart even more. But then, she have to take his risk. And if there's one person she would want to give her first kiss, it would be the man she loves – the man standing before her, her best friend.

“OK. Just this once, Chun.” she said. “Thank you for trusting me.” he said. He moved closer to her. His hands cupped her cheeks as his faced inched closer to hers. She closed her eyes, and waited for that one second to happen. Then, she felt his lips against her. She felt his warm and soft lips kissing her. It was the most beautiful feeling she have ever felt, the most magical moment she had in her entire life. She felt like at this very moment, Chun was hers, and only hers, and that he loves her in the same way that she loves him. If this is a dream, she wanted to stay this way forever.

“Chun! Ella! What the hell are you two doing?!”

The two broke their kiss. By the door, they saw Joe glaring at the two. Chun was shocked at what had happened. He looked at Joe, then, back at Ella. “I... I have to go...” he said. “Chun?! Come back here, you bastard!” Joe shouted. She was about to follow him, but her sister stopped her. “Jie... stop it!” she said. Joe glared at her sister. “What's happening, mei? Why is he kissing you? I thought he have a girlfriend already?!” she said. Ella bit her lips, as she lowered her head. “I wanted this... I... wanted this as well... if there's someone to blame, it's me...” she said in a low voice.

Joe looked closely at her sister, and she could see the tears in her eyes. She felt her own heart breaking for her only sister. “Mei...” she said softly. “Are you... are you in love with your best friend?” she asked. Ella looked up at her. The tears began to fall from her eyes as she nodded her head. “Yes. I am...” she said. “And this is the only way I know I could tell him that I love him... because I know he could never love me back...” she said. Joe held her sisters hand, and hugged her. She wished there's something she could do to take away all her pain right now, but for now, all she could do is let her cry on her shoulder.

--

“You're only hurting yourself... do you know that? Chun only sees you as a friend. Maybe it's about time that you give other people a chance to love you. You deserve to be loved as well...”

--

“Hey...”

He looked back. She smiled as she walked up to him. As she stood in front of him, she lowered her head. “I'm sorry... for the last time...” she said in a soft voice. “I understand... you don't have to apologize...” he answered. “I know what you're feeling, because I'm feeling it too. And I know, it's unfair of me to reject you...”
“Chun will always be the one in your heart, and I understand. All I can do is be a friend to you...”

She looked up at him. And just like before, there was a spark of hope in his eyes. “I don't want to love him anymore...” she said softly. A tear fell from her eye as she speaks. “It... it has been hurting me constantly... and I don't want to feel this pain anymore.” she said. He cupped her cheek with his palm, and wiped the tears from her eyes. “Can I take away your pain? Can I try to make you unlove him?” he asked with a hopeful tone. She closed her eyes, and nodded her head. “Yes...” she said.

“I'm giving you the chance, Lego.”





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Sunday, August 1, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 7

Tears Fall


Should I be happy because we're friends?
Or should I cry because I know that's all we'll ever be?
How can I stay by your side forever
When all I want is to be the one who holds your heart?
Will you forgive me if I stay away for a while?
Will you forgive me if I can't truly be happy for you?
Will you forgive me if...
If I would hate you even for a while?

--

“I like you!” he bowed before Tiffany as he held the roses out for her. “Will you go out with me, please?” he added. Tiffany and Ella looked at each other. Ella turned to the guy in front of them, and walked up to her. “Aiyo, stop it, Joe!” she told him. She helped him up, and then took the roses from his hand. “Nice roses, Joe.” she told him. Joe just glared at him. “I hate you.” he muttered at Ella. He looked at Tiffany, and she smiled at him. “I'm sorry, Joe... I... I can't go out with you.” Tiffany said. Joe's face fell at what she said. “Eh?” he asked. “She said she doesn't want to go out with you. So, scram now, will you!” Ella shouted at him. Joe glared at Ella, and then snatched the flowers from her hand. As Joe left, Ella couldn't stop laughing.

“That was the seventh confession this month. Guys never learns.” Ella said as she shook his head. She turned to Tiffany, and saw her sad expression. “It is the seventh... and every time someone comes up to me to confess their feelings... I... I am wishing it would be Chun...” she said. Ella let out a sigh. “Chun is a shy guy, Tiff.” she said. “Does Chun really likes me? Maybe you are wrong... maybe he likes another, and not really me.” Tiffany said. Ella looked at her for a long time, and then she smiled at her. “Chun... likes you.” she said. “If... if he doesn't like you... he... he wouldn't forget that we... had to get the application form to that university he badly wanted to go to. If he doesn't like you, he wouldn't take out all his savings just to buy you that teddy bear. He... he won't waste time waiting for you outside the school gate, under the scorching sun and under the cold droplets of the rain. He likes you. No... he loves you. I have never seen my best friend put so much effort in getting to close to a girl, like what he is doing now with you. Don't ever doubt what I tell you about him... because I know him, I know him all my life. Maybe.... maybe he is just waiting for the right time to let you know what he feels. Maybe he thinks it's too soon... to tell you that he loves you.” she said.

Tiffany looked at Ella for a long time. “Ella...” she whispered. Ella looked up at her, and smiled. “Who knows... the next guy that will confess to you will be Chun. If you want, I'll badger him with it. And... and it's about time. Four months from now, we'll be graduating from high school, and he might not ave his chance to tell you what he fells. Right... I should tell him to make his move soon.” she said. She could hear her own voice faltering, giving away what she truly feels inside. She looked away from Tiffany as she turned her back on her. She knew she is lying not only to herself, but to her friends as well. But she had to hide her feelings from Tiffany and Chun, and pretend that she's OK. “I really hope that Chun will be the next guy that will confess... if not...” Tiffany said.

Ella looked back at her. She saw her shaking his head. “If not, what will you do?” she asked. “I'll have to accept the next guy that will confess to me.” Tiffany said.

--

“Seriously, Chun. When are you going to make your move on Tiffany?” Ella asked. They were by the swing that afternoon. After she accompanied Tiffany earlier, she decided to have a talk with Chun. “I don't know how to tell her that I like her.” Chun said. Ella could only groan. “Come on, look at Joe Cheng. That nerdy guy had the guts to confess to Tiffany a while ago.” Ella said. Chun was surprised at what she said. “Joe Cheng?” he asked. Ella nodded her head. “It's the seventh confession this month. Chun... I can't always guard Tiffany from the other guys. You have to make your move soon.” she said. “What if she rejects me? What if she only sees me as a friend? You know that I'm not used to rejection.... especially with girls.” Chun said worriedly. “You wouldn't know if she likes you or not if you won't take the risk. If she doesn't like you, then prove to her that you're worthy to be likeable.” Ella said.

Chun let out a sigh, and then leaned back. “Come on, what is it that you've got to lose? You've got way more advantage than those guys around her. Your with her almost everyday. You were her first guy friend, and you have gotten to know her much better.” she said. “I really don't know, Ella... I think she's comfortable with our friendship, and I don't want to make things awkward just because of my love confession. I think it would be better if we stayed as friends.” he said. Ella folded her arms, and glared at him. “Are you stupid?! Chun, you have the girl you like within your reach. You can easily tell her what you feel for her, and you're choosing to be just friends because you're scared to get out of your comfort zone?”
“You don't understand...”
“I don't understand? I don't understand? I know how it feels like, Chun! I know how it feels to fall in lo-”

She paused, for she was almost about to tell him how she feels for him. “I... I know how you are feeling. You are my best friend, Chun, and don't ever think that I don't understand. I... I just want to help you. I want you to be happy. Because... because you are my friend... and you deserve to be happy and to be loved. Because...because you're a nice guy, and you deserve her love and affection. No one looks better with her than you. You have to realize that.” she said. With that, Chun smiled at her. He stood up, sat beside her and gave her a hug. “You always say the right things to make me feel confident...” he said. He released her, and looked into her eyes. “Sometimes, I think that Tiffany is to good to be true... like a dream. If she becomes my girl, I would be the happiest boy on earth, and I'll everything so that she could be happiest girl I've ever known. But... I'm just the plain old ordinary Wu Chun. How can I make someone as special as her fall for me?” he asked. “Did it ever occur to you that because of who you are, someone might be loving you? That someone have fallen in love with the plain, old, ordinary Wu Chun?” Ella answered. Chun gave her a skeptical look. “Are you saying that because you're my best friend?” he asked. Ella just answered him with a smile.

--

Ella was walking through the park, when she saw Tiffany and another guy talking. She stopped for a while, and watched them. “Tiffany, I really like you a lot... please go out with me.” he guy said. Ella's eyes widened upon hearing that. She remembered that she told her that she will accept the next guy that will confess to her. She looked at Tiffany, and as she was about to say her answer, she ran up to her. “Tiffany!” she shouted. Tiffany looked back at her. “Ella?” she asked. She smiled at her. As soon as she got near her, she held her hand, and pulled her away from the guy. “Come on, the girls are waiting for us.” she said. Tiffany could only give her a confused look as she let her pull her away from the guy.

“Ella?” she asked her as she pulled her away from the guy. “Why?” Ella paused, and looked at her. “You can't possibly accept that guy! What about Chun?” Ella told her. “Chun will not confess to me.” Tiffany said in a matter-of-fact tone. “He will! You just have to wait, Tiffany.”
“I don't think he will...”
“Are you giving up on him? I thought you like him?”
“I thought he liked me too. I'm tired of waiting for him to tell me that he loves me. If he can't tell me, then I'd rather give the other guys a chance.”

Ella stared at her for a long time. “Tiffany...” she whispered. “I can't wait forever for just someone...” Tiffany said. “Sometimes... sometimes... you have to wait for something that you badly wanted before it would be given to you. Sometimes it would take a long time to be given to you. If you can't wait for him, then it means you don't like Chun bad enough.” Ella said. Tiffany realized that Ella is right. But then, she just can't wait for Chun to make the move. If only she isn't shy enough, she would have made her move to him. “I promise you, Tiff... the next guy that will confess his love for you, it will be him. I promise you that.” Ella said. Tiffany stared at her for a long time. Though she had her doubts, she had to trust in Ella's words. She let out a smile, and nodded her head.

--

Ella stood outside of Chun's house the next day. After a long wait, Chun finally came out. “Ella, what are you doing here?” he asked. “Can we walk together to school?” she asked. Chun smiled at her, and nodded his head. He held Ella's hand as they walked to school. On their way to school, Chun noticed that his best friend have been awfully quiet. “What's wrong?” he asked. Ella looked up at him, and smiled. “Nothing.”
“Why are you so silent? You're not always like that when you're around me.”
“Can't I be silent for even a day?”
Chun let out a laugh. “All right. As long as there's no broken bones inside that fat body of yours, and you're not wailing like a little kid, I'll believe that nothing's wrong with you.” he said. Ella nodded her head.

After a while, he heard her let out a sigh. “OK... something is wrong. When you sigh like that, I know something is wrong,.” he said. “Chun...” she began. She paused, and then turned to him. “You said you will always keep your promise to me, right?” she asked. Chun gave her a confused look, but nevertheless, he nodded his head. “Then, you have to promise me one thing. Today. This is the most important promise that you have to keep, because if you broke it, I... I will never ever forgive you.” she said. “You know that I always do... well, except the last time... but what is it? Is t a matter of life and death?” he asked. “No, this is for your happiness...” she thought. Thenn, she nodded her head. “Meet me at the park later after school. You have to promise me that you'll come, no matter what happens. If... if you don't come... then forget that I'm your best friend. There's... there's something that I have to tell you... something...” She looked away from him, avoiding his gaze. “Something that I can't tell you now.” Chun nodded his head. “All right. No matter what happens, I'll come. Count on me, all right?” he said.

--

The school bell have rang, and it's dismissal time.

Chun put all his things inside his bag, then Lego approached him. “Chun, what do you think of this?” he asked. Chun looked up, and saw him holding a bouquet of flowers. He gave him a puzzled look. “What's that for?” he asked. Lego smiled at him. “I'm going to confess to the most beautiful girl I've ever met.” he said. “Wow... I never thought you had the romantic bone. So, who's the unfortunate girl?” he teased. He gathered his bag, and walked out of the classroom with Lego. “I won't tell.”
“Come on... why do you have to keep secrets from me, Lego Li. Tell me who she is.”
“Ask again, and I might tell you.”
“Who is she?”
“Ask again.”

Chun let out a groan, and glared at him. “Tell me who she is if you want.” he said. Lego laughed at him, and then he put his arms around his neck. “I can't tell you exactly what her name is. But... I can give you a clue. She really is very close to you, and she studies at St. Margaret's.” Lego said. Chun scratched his chin as he thought who the girl is. “Close to me, huh... well there's -” Then, it hit him. Lego will probably be confessing to Tiffany. He never thought that he would also like the same girl. “I heard she rejected a lot of guys already... so, I hope she would accept me this time. Wish me luck, OK?” Lego said. He patted his shoulder, then walked away from him.

“Wei, Lego!” Chun shouted. Lego stopped walking, and looked back at him. “I'll go with you.” Chun said. Lego gave him a confused look. “Aren't you supposed to meet your best friend today?” he asked. Chun put his hands on his waist as he glared at him. “You can't possibly -” he said. He lowered his head, and shook his head. As much as he wants to go wth Lego and stop nhis love confession for Tiffany, he promised to meet Ella today at the park after school. And he can' ditch Ella just because of his jealousy with Lego. His friendship with her is much more important than Tiffany.

He let out a sigh of defeat. He looked up at Lego, and gave him a weary smile. “Good luck. I know she will agree to date you. Just be nice to her, all right?” Chun said. Lego nodded his head. “Thanks, Chun.” he said. Then, he ran off from him., leaving the defeated Chun behind.

--

Chun looked at his watch. It's already 5 PM, and Ella have not yet arrived. Somehow, he is getting worried with his best friend. He knew their classes have ended an hour ago, and she's still not here at the park. “Where are you, Ella?” he thought worriedly. He was not only worried, but also anxious as to what she was about to tell him.

“Chun?”

His thoughts were interrupted with that familiar voice. She looked back, and saw Tiffany walking up to him. “T-tiffany? W-what... what are you doing here?” he asked. “Ella told me you'll be here. So, she asked me to come.” Tiffany said. Chun gave her a puzzled look. “Ella? I was supposed to meet her today. She said she had something important to tell me.” he said. “Maybe what she wants to tell you is in this letter.”

Tiffany handed him a folded paper, and Chun immediately opened it. It was a letter from Ella.

Dear Chun,
I know you'll be surprised to find Tiffany here at the park, and not me. I know you are expecting me to come, after what I told you this morning. But then, I realized it would be better if I send Tiffany so that you will know what I want to tell you.

Chun, you are my best friend, and as your best friend, I only want your happiness. And the promise I ask of you is a promise of happiness, not for me, but for you. Forget all your doubts in yourself for a while. Take the risk, and confess your love to her. This is your chance, Chun. A chance like this may never come again. I know the two of you are destined to be together, and I just need to push you a little so that could happen. Promise me that by the end of the day, you will tell her what's inside your heart. I know she likes you as well, but you have to find it out yourself.

Again, this is your only chance. If you don't do anything today, I won't ever help you with her. I've done my part, now do yours.

Ella

Chun smiled as he read the letter. Then, he looked at Tiffany. “What's wrong? Why are you smiling?” she asked. “Oh... nothing. It's just that Ella said something silly in her letter.” he sad. Tiffany smiled, and nodded her head. “T-tiffany...” he called. She looked at him, and waited for him to speak. “Ella said there's something that you want to tell me...” Tiffany said. Chun was surprised at what she said. Guess there's no turning back with his confession.

“I like you, Tiffany.” he said in one go. He looked at her face to see her reaction. “I... I really do...” he said. He could feel his heart beating after saying those words. He doesn't know if it's right to confess to her at this time. He lowered his head, expecting her rejection, and he didn't notice the smile on Tiffany;s lips. “I like you too, Chun.” she said. Chun could not believe what he heard. He looked up, and saw her smiling at him.

As the sun sets down, the two of them stood facing each other with a smile on their face. The day ends, but it was a start of love for the two of them.

--

“So, he believed you?”
A nod.
A laugh.
“Great! If... if he came with you, I will smack him in the head.”
A laugh.
A stare.

She looked away from him. By now, Ella knew that Chun and Tiffany are finally ogether. She knew she should be happy for them, but her heart couldn't help but to break at that thought. She was to blame for her broken hart because she helped them to get together. She wanted to hate herself for being too selfless. But she knew she would hate herself more if Chun will not be happy for her.

He walked up to her, and showed her the bouquet of flowers in his hand. She stared at it, then looked at him. “L-lego?” she said. “I told Chun I will be confessing to the most beautiful girl that I have ever known. At least, I could do that now, right?” he said. Ella was getting confused at what he was saying. “I like you, Ella. I'm not asking you to like me back or to go out with me. But... will you give me a chance to prove to you that I'm worthy of you?” he said.

She stared at the flowers for a while. Then, she looked up at Lego again. “Lego...” she whispered. “Let me take his place for a while. I know... I know you're hurt because of him. Let me try to ease that pain. Let me be his substitute for a while. Will you give me that chance?” he asked. She took a deep breath, and lowered her head. “I...”






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Saturday, July 24, 2010

Say That You Love Me - Chapter 6

One Smile


It doesn't matter if I'm hurt
It doesn't matter if my heart is breaking.
I love you much to do everything for you
I'll do everything and anything to keep you happy
And to earn that one smile from your lips...

--

Chun walked Tiffany home that night, after their date. He was so happy that he got a chance to be with her alone, and he was happy that Ella gave him that chance. He got to know her even more, and he started to feel more comfortable around her, unlike before when he tends to stutter when he talks to her in person.

“Here we are.” Tiffany said as stopped in front of a big white gate. She turned to Chun, and smiled at him. “Thanks for a wonderful afternoon, Chun.” she said. Chun blushed the moment she smiled his way. “It's nothing. I hoped you enjoyed my company.” he said as he scratched his head. Tiffany nodded her head. “I did. It was fun hanging out with you.”
“So, do you think we could do this again? We could go out again?”
“Of course.”
Chun's smile widened upon hearing her answer. “Great! M-maybe next time, Lego and E-ella can go out with us. I promise the next would be much fun.” he said. Tiffany smiled, and nodded her head. “I can't wait for the next time, Chun.” she said. “Me too. Next week would be good?” he asked. She nodded her head again. “Great. Then, next week it is. I'll wait for you at the school gate. Same time, same day...” he said. “Can't wait.” she said. He said goodnight to her, and then left as soon as Tiffany got inside the house. “Yes!” he shouted, throwing his clenched fist up in the air. Finally, he have another chance to be with Tiffany, and he knew this will be the start of something new for them.

--

He got home that night, and saw Ella by their porch. “Oh, hey Ella!” he said cheerfully. Ella let out a smirk at him. “Seems like someone is so happy today.” she said as she folded her arms. Chun nodded his head. “I am. Thanks to you, my very very best friend.” he said. Ella snorted at her best friend. “Yeah, right… whatever. You should thank me that I’m helping you with Tiffany.” She said. He smiled at her, and then put his arms around her neck. “Of course, I am. I’m very grateful that you’re here to help me always. Don’t worry, if you ask for a favor or help, I’ll be there for you.” He said. “You better keep that promise, or else.” She threatened him. Chun just let out a laugh.

“So, what are you doing here at this time? It’s already late.” Chun asked. “Well, I’m here to tell you that the uni will be giving out the application forms next week. I was hoping you could come with me.” She said. Chun nodded his head. “Sure, no problem. I’ll go with you at the uni.” He said. “Great then. So, next week, you will be my date. Make sure that you’ll be there. I won’t get you the application form if you won’t come with me.” She said. Chun raised his right hand at her. “I promise. Cross my heart, hope to die.” He said.

--
The following week.

As Ella got out of their house, she saw Chun waiting for her outside. “What are you doing here?” she asked. Chun looked at her, and smiled. Then, she saw him holding a small teddy bear. She recognized it as the teddy bear that she have been asking Chun for years to get her at the local toy store. “Wow! Finally, you got it!” she said excitedly as she snatched the teddy bear from his hand. She hugged it, and smiled at him. “Thanks , I know you will get it for me. Why does it have to take you so long to get it?” she said. Chun laughed at her, and snatched the teddy bear from her hand. “This is not for you, silly.” He said.

At that instant, the smile on her face disappeared. “It’s for Tiffany?” she asked. Chun nodded his head. “We passed by the toy store the other day, and she found this cute teddy bear. She really wanted this, but she didn’t have enough money. So, I bought this teddy bear for her yesterday. Isn’t it cute?” he asked. She folded her arms, and then walked away from him. Chun was puzzled by her sudden reaction. “Ella?” he called as he walked after her. “Ella? Are you mad?” he asked again. Still, there was no answer from her. He ran to her, and held her arm to stop her. As he faced her, he saw the angry expression on her face. “Ella? What’s wrong?” he asked. She brushed his hand from her, and glared up at him. “What’s wrong with me? Chun, I was the one who asked you to buy me that teddy bear first! You didn’t want to buy it for me. You said I should save up for it. You said you will not buy it for me, unless it’s my birthday! And then what?! Just because Tiffany didn’t have enough money to buy it, you took your money, and bought it as a gift for her? Don’t you think you’re being too unfair to me?” she said angrily.

Chun was taken aback by what she said. “E-Ella…” he said softly. “Right, it will always be about her. Oh, yeah… I forgot… you were doing everything to be on her good side… so that you could be much closer to her… so that you can win her heart. Am I right?” she said sarcastically. Chun just looked at her for a long time. He felt guilty because everything she said is true. “I… I’m sorry…” he whispered. “And I wouldn’t be surprised if you forgot your promise to me… that you will go to me at the uni to get the application forms?” she asked. With that, Chun closed his eyes, and smacked himself in the head. “Ella… I’m really sorry, I forgot about that and made plans with Tiffany today.” He said. Ella tried to control her anger. She took a deep breath, and then walked away from him again. Chun looked back, and then began to follow her again. “Look, Ella… it was an honest mistake. I forgot about it… it’s my fault… I’m sorry.” He said. “Go away!” Ella shouted at him. Chun was still persistent in following her. “Ella… please… don’t be mad at me… please…” he pleaded. Ella just continued going her way, as Chun followed her.

“Ella… please stop. Hear me out… please…” he pleaded. This time, Ella stopped, and turned to face him. “So, which came first? Your date with Tiffany, or our date at the uni?” she asked. Chun just lowered his head. “Tell me the truth. Did you asked Tiffany out before you agreed to go with me at the uni?” she asked again. Chun slowly looked up at him, and nodded his head. “I… asked Tiffany first… I’m so sorry, Ella.” He said. He saw her clenching her fist. She bit her lips as she tried to control her tears from falling. “I… I just wished for once, I could become your priority. I… I just wished that you didn’t make a promise to me, especially when you were so happy because of Tiffany. I… I just wish you would realize that I also need you, my best friend. I’m doing everything I could to help you. God knows that I am… but I guess I am a fool to believe that you will return the favor to me.” She said softly. She wiped the tears that finally fell from her eyes. Then, she swiftly turned her back on him, and walked away. Chun did not dare to follow her. He knew he have hurt her by breaking his promise to her. “What have I done?” he thought. He felt guilty for breaking his promise to her, and he have never seen Ella this mad at him before.

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Ella walked at the school gate, and she saw Tiffany and Chun together. She just let out a sigh as she saw the two smiling at each other. As soon as they left the school, she walked outside the school gate. “Hey, dork!” she heard someone say. She looked back, and saw Lego running up to her. “So, are you going to the uni now?” he asked. Ella nodded her head. “Where’s Chun?” he asked. “Aren’t you supposed to know where he is? He have a date with Tiffany today.” She said. Lego folded his arms, and smiled playfully at her. “So, that explains the gloomy mood.” He said. Ella snorted at him. “If you only knew what happened…” she said. Lego put his arms around her as they walked. She looked up at him, and he smiled at her. I think it’s not that worse, right? I mean, you two fight a lot, but you two always made up for that. And be more considerate. It’s the first time that Chun the great is in love.” He said. She let out a sigh and continued to walk. Before she knew it, they were already inside the university.

“I’ll wait for you here. Do what you have to do.” Lego told her. Ella looked at him, and smiled. She nodded her head, and then ran up to the building’s entrance. Then, she paused, and then looked at Lego. She walked up to him. “Thank you. For being here for me.” She said. Lego smiled back at him. “No need to thank me. Just think of me as your guardian angel.” He said, winking at her. Ella laughed at him. “A very annoying guardian angel.” She said. Lego laughed at her. “Better hurry up, or you won’t be able to get an application form. I’ll wait for you here, all right?” he said. Ella nodded her head, and then ran up to the building.

She lined up to take the application form. Then, it was her turn. “Hi, can I get an application form?” she asked the lady behind the window. The lady smiled at her, and then handed her the application form. She took it, and then left the line. As she stared at the application form, she suddenly remembered Chun. Like her, Chun wanted to get in to this university, and she knew that Chun is working hard to be able to get in to this university. She let out a sigh, and then went at the end of the line. As soon as it was her turn, the lady looked at her. “It’s you again?” she asked. “I… I would like to ask for another application form. This time, it’s for my best friend. Would that be OK?” she asked. “We don’t usually give out more than one form to an applicant.” She said. “Please, madam… my friend couldn’t just come here because he’s sick. He badly wanted to get into this university, and I know that you only give out the forms just today. Please… please give me another form, for my friend?” she asked. The lady smiled at her, and then handed her two application forms. “I’m just kidding. Here, you can give these to your friends who wants to enter this university.” She said. She smiled at the lady and thanked her for giving her the application forms.

As she got out of the building, she noticed that Lego is not around. “Where could he be…” she thought. She went down, and then walked towards the park just in front of the school building. She sat at one of the benches, and then waited for Lego to come back. Just then, she heard someone playing the guitar again. It was the same song as she heard the other day at the chapel. She looked at the other side, and saw the same guy she saw at the chapel, playing the same song on the guitar. He was humming to it as he strums the strings. She listened to him play the song, then he paused and looked at her. He smiled at her, and she smiled shyly at her, and nodded her head.

“Calvin!” she heard a girl said. She saw a girl walk up to him, and sat beside him. “Don’t forget tonight.” She said. Calvin looked at her, and nodded his head. “I won’t miss it for the world.” He said. “It’s the senior’s girlfriend…” she thought. She decided to ignore them, and mind her own business while waiting for Lego. Then, she saw Lego rushing up to him. “Hey, Ella…” he said, trying to catch his breath. “Where have you been?” she asked. “Just around the corner. Are we good? Can we go home now?” he asked. Ella stood up, and nodded her head. “Let’s go.” She said.

As she leaves, Calvin looked at her. The smile on his face slowly disappeared as she left with Lego. “Must be her boyfriend…” he said. He let out a sigh, and began to play a new song, but then he always ended up playing the song he was playing while looking at that girl. “God, what’s wrong with me? That girl sure have an effect on me.” He thought as he laughed.


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“I’ll see you tomorrow?” Lego asked Ella. They were by Ella’s gate, and Lego have walked her home. “Depends. Are you gonna treat me out tomorrow?” she asked. “Ice cream?” he asked. Ella smiled, and nodded her head . “You bet!” she said. Then, he pulled something from his bag, and showed it to Ella. It was a bear hand puppet. “I think I know why you’re upset a while ago. This may not be like the teddy bear that you wanted Chun to get you, but it’s the cutest one they’ve got. Too bad, someone already bought the last piece of that teddy bear…” he said as he scratched his head. Ella laughed at him, and then took the puppet from his hand. She put in on her hand, and then she made it talk with her hands. “Xie xie ni.” She said. Lego looked at her, and smiled. She let out another laugh upon seeing him blush. “What?” he asked. “You’re blushing, Lego.” Ella said. “I am not!” he said defensively. Then, she made her puppet talk again. “You are!” she said. She laughed at him again.

Just as the two were teasing each other, Chun got out of his house, and saw Ella and Lego laughing at each other. He saw the sudden closeness of the two, and somehow, he felt jealous. Ella got mad at him for not keeping his promise, and with Lego being close to her, he felt threatened. He let out a sigh, and went back inside the house sadly. “I just wish my surprise for her would be enough for her to forgive me…” he thought.

Ella went inside her room, and the first thing she saw is the teddy bear she liked on top of her bed. She let out a smile as she took it. With it is a note from Chun. “I’m sorry. Please don’t be mad at me.” It says. She smiled to herself, and hugged the teddy bear. Meanwhile, Chun heard a knock on his door. He rushed to it, and saw his mom standing. “Ella wanted to give this to you.” She said. He took the application forms in her hand, and smiled to himself. On the upper right hand corner of the paper was a note from Ella. “You may have forgotten your promise to go with me to the uni today, but you have to promise me to pass the entrance exam with me so that we could study there, all right? I forgive you, and thanks for the teddy bear. P.S. Give the other form to Tiff.” It says.

He immediately rushed to his window, and then called on to Ella. “Ella!” he shouted. Ella got up from her bed, and opened her window. “Thank you.” He said. “Don’t mention it. I’m your best friend, remember? If you break another promise, then I swear I’m gonna find a new best friend.” She threatened. Chun smiled, and nodded his head. “I promise.” He said, smiling at her.

She closed the window, and then turned back to her bed. She knew she would do everything to see him smile like that. She will take anything just to see him smiling, even if it hurts her so. “I will try to be more understanding, Chun…” she thought. “I will try… for your sake…”




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