Round 11 – Of Love Confessions, Rejections and Expectations
“I think it's Nana.” Selina told Ella. Ella shook her head. “Maybe she is but I don't think he even is Chun's type.” she said. Selina looked at her list, and crossed out Nana's name. “Angela? Charlene? Joanne? Esther? Ginger? Marie? Alyssa?” Selina asked again. Ella shook her head again. “Nope, nope, nope, nope and nope.” Ella said. Selina let out a sigh, and crossed out the names on her list. She let out a groan, and leaned back on the couch. “This is harder than I thought.” she said. Ella stood up from her seat, and then sat beside Selina on the couch. “We HAVE to find who that girl is, Selina. We HAVE to. I NEED to find out who she is.” Ella said. Selina looked at her cousin, and gave her a dubious look. “Why do you have to know who Chun's crush is way back in elementary. As if you care...” Selina said. “I do care, Sel. Imagine, if I found out who she is, then I can use that information against Chun.” she said, smiling evilly. “Ella Chen! Are you out of your mind?! You're going to use an innocent girl against your enemy!” she shouted at him.
Ella sighed, and leaned back on the couch. “You know what, instead of butting in Chun's affair, why don't you just continue to find out who that cookie guy is.” Selina said. Ella gave her a confused look. “Cookie guy?” she asked. “You know... the guy who keeps on leaving cookies on your seat.” Selina said. Ella folded her arms, and as she looked away from her, she suddenly remembered her cookie guy.
“Stupid chicken face! Stupid, stupid chicken face!” Ella muttered as she stomped towards her seat. Recess time is over, and it ended with her and Chun having a fight, and explaining everything to the principal. Now, the principal wanted to see and talk to their parents in order to solve their rift. That whole week, Chun had done nothing but bully her. He even played a prank on her during the flag ceremony that morning, and the only chance she had to get back at him was at today's recess. “I will never forgive that stupid chicken face! He started everything, and he made it look like I was the one who started it!” she said.
Her cousin, Selina, who was busy reading a book, could hear her ranting again about her enemy. “Ellie, what happened?” she asked her disheveled-looking cousin. “Don't ask, Selina!” she snapped at him. “It's about Chun again, right?” she asked. “Who else?! He got me into trouble again. I will never ever forgive that stupid chicken face till the day I die, you hear that Selina? I will not forgive him!” she said. She went to her seat, and as she sat, she noticed a bag of cookies on her desk. “Selina?” she called. Selina looked at her cousin. “Yes, Ellie?” she said. “Who left these cookies on my desk?” she asked. Selina shrugged her shoulders. “I don't know. I came in a few minutes before you came in.” she said.
Ella looked at the cookies on her desk. “Who gave these to me?” she thought. She held it up, and noticed a card attached to it. It only had a smiley face on it and her name. She opened the cookies, and then took a piece and ate it. “Wow, this is delicious...” she thought as she munched on the cookie. Somehow, eating those cookies made her feel better.
[End of flashback]
“Cookie guy, huh?” Ella thought. Selina nodded her head. “We've been trying to track him down, remember? Unfortunately, I still get the same answers last reunion.” Selina said. “I don't think we can ever find that cookie guy. Or maybe the cookie guy have already forgotten about his good deeds to me.” Ella said. Selina nodded her head. “Maybe... but Ellie, dear, what will you do if you found him?” she asked. Ella paused, and looked away from Selina. “I don't know, maybe I will thank him. I will thank him because if it wasn't for him and for his cookies, I wouldn't be able to get through Chun's tortures.” she said. Then, she looked at Selina and smiled at her. “You know, I find it really weird. Every time Chun does something bad to me, he would always give those cookies to me. Whenever I wanted to cry, his cookies makes me smile.” she said.
Selina smiled at her, and held her hand. “Do you like the cookie guy?” she asked. Ella shrugged her shoulder. “I like cookie guy as a friend, but if you're asking me if I like him in the same way as I like Sphinx, that wouldn't be possible. I can't like someone whom I haven't even met yet. Maybe if we do met, I can tell if I like him or not.” she said. “So, in the end, Sphinx is still your first love... you still can't get over him, huh?” she said. “How can I? You know that I've been in love with him since I first met him. And now that I'm turning 25 and he said that he's going to keep his promise of marrying me... how can I love him less?” Ella said. “But I'm worried about you, Ellie. Don't put all you eggs on the basket, OK? Don't expect too much from Sphinx. I don't want you to be hurt in case Sphinx breaks his promise to you.” Selina said. Ella smiled and shook his head. “I know Sphinx, Sel. Since then, he never broke a promise to me. I trust that he won't break that promise.” she said.
Selina just let out a sigh. “Speaking of you best friend, he's missing-in-action lately. Where is he?” she asked. Ella shrugged her shoulders. “I don't know... maybe he's preparing a surprise for me. My birthday is coming up, you know?” she said. Selina just shook her head at her cousin. “Yeah, yeah, I know.” Selina said.
Ethan handed the bouquet of flowers to Chun, while Nicholas turned to him, and fixed his tie. “You look handsome.” Nicholas said. “I'm really sure Bianca will not turn you down this time.” Ethan said. He gave the two a nervous look. “Are you sure I look all right?” he asked. Ethan nodded his head. “If I'm Bianca, you're just about to say that you like me, I will accept you already.” he said. “Then, it's a good thing that you're not Bianca.” he said. With that, Nicholas let out a laugh. Then, Chun let out a nervous sigh. “Am I OK? Do you think Bianca will like the shirt I'm wearing? Do you think she'll find me handsome?” he asked. Ethan and Nicholas nodded their heads. “No need to be worried, Chun. You look A-OK.” Nicholas said. Ethan nodded his head in agreement. “What if she doesn't? What if I looked like a fool in front of her?” he asked. “You will only look like a fool if you froze in your place, so stop being too nervous, Wu Chun.” Ethan said.
Just then, Bianca came down the stairs. Chun readied himself as he faced her. “Chun? Why are you all dressed up? I thought we're just going for a walk?” she asked in a confused tone. Chun once again froze in his place because of nervousness, and was not able to speak right away. “Of course! Of course, the two of you will go out for a walk. But Chun wants to look handsome in front of you.” Ethan said. “But there's no need to dress up so formal. We're just going out for a walk... and he is already handsome.” Bianca said, smiling at him. Chun felt himself blushing with what Bianca said. He smiled to himself as he looked away from her. “So, do I need to change? It would be awkward if it would only be him who's dressed up so formal...” she said. As she turned to go upstairs, Chun stopped her. “No, no! You don't have to change.” Chun said. Bianca paused, and gave him a confused look. “Why?” she asked. “You're perfect just the way you are.” he said. Bianca smiled at him, and nodded her head. “If you say so...” she said. She came up to him, and held on to her arms. “Shall we go?” she asked. Chun nodded his head, and lead Bianca out of the house.
Selina came downstairs, and she saw her cousin on the phone, trying to call someone. She guessed it's Sphinx, for Sphinx have not shown himself to her these past few days. “Wei... is there anything wrong?” she asked. Ella sighed, and looked at her cousin. “I still couldn't get hold of Sphinx!” she said. “Maybe the guy is busy with work... or with his surprise for you on your birthday.” she said. “But still, he should have called me to let me know how he is! God, I hate it when Sphinx does this to me...” she said. She let out a sigh, and slumped on the couch.
Then, they heard a knock on the door. Selina opened it, and was surprised to see who it is. “Ellie...” she called. Ella looked at her cousin, and was confused by her expression. She stood up and walked up by the door. She was surprised to see Sphinx by the door, holding a bouquet of roses. “S-sphinx!” she said. Sphinx smiled at her. “Hey, Ellie. Flowers for you...” he said. Ella blushed as she took the flowers his hand. “Oh my God... don't tell me he will confess his love for me now? Wow! This is great!” she thought giddily. Selina just gave the two a meaningful smile. “I'll leave the two of you to talk for a while. If you need me, I'm at Hebe's place.” she said. Selina immediately went out of their apartment to leave the two alone.
“C-come in...” Ella said, leading Sphinx inside the house. “I'm really sorry for not being around. It's just that I've been busy lately...” Sphinx said. “I... I understand, Sphinx.” she said. “Actually, I came here to ask you if you want to go out with me? I want to make up for those days I'm not around you...” he said. Ella turned to him, and let out a smile. “O-of course I would love to!” she said. “Great! There's also something that I want to tell you...” he said. Ella looked away from him, and smiled to herself. “This is it! He's going to propose to me! I knew it... he wasn't around these past few days because he wanted to surprised me!” she thought. Then, she looked at him, and smiled. “What is it that you want to tell me?” she asked. Sphinx let out a smile at her. “It's a surprise.”
Bianca held on to Chun's arms as they strolled at the park. She looked up at him, and she saw Chun smiling at her. “Why do you look happy today, Chunnie?” she asked. “Its because I'm with the prettiest girl I've ever laid my eyes on.” he said. Bianca giggled and hit Chun in his arm. “Aiyo! Chunnie, you're making me blush...” she said. “But it's true! You're the prettiest girl I've ever laid my eyes on.” he said. “You're only saying that because you don't go out and date other girls.” she said. Chun laughed, and shook his head. “I don't want to date any other girls, Bianca...” he said. “Is it because of the girl you like?” she asked. Chun nodded his head. “When I met her, I said to myself, this is the girl I want to be with for the rest of my life... the one I will love forever and ever. But I just didn't have the guts to tell her how I feel for her...” he said.
Bianca looked at him with disbelief. “You? Didn't have the guts to tell her how you feel? That's not the Chun I know. The Chun I know is straightforward, and not afraid to say what he feels inside.” she said. “But when I'm with this girl, I become too speechless. It's either I become speechless, or I tend to say a lot of stupid things to her that makes her laugh at me... but that's OK, because I know that I was able to make her smile because of those nonsense things I say.” he said. “That girl must be really lucky to be loved by you, Chun. And knowing you, I know you will love this girl whole-heartedly. I'm jealous of her.” she said.
That was the cue for Chun. Chun paused, and then he turned to face her. He held her hand and then he gazed into Bianca's eyes. “I love you, Bianca...” he said. Bianca was surprised at what he said, and was not able to react right away. “Since we first me, I've been in love with you. I can give you a thousand reasons why, but it will all come down to this one reason: I love you because you are what you are. I know it's a bit too early for you, since you just broke up with Matt, but... but will you give me a chance? Will you let me prove to you that I'm for real?” he said. Bianca turned away from him and took her hand away from him. “Chun... I... I'm surprised. I'm sorry...” she said. Chun smiled at her. “I know. You didn't expect that my jokes are real, right? Whenever I say that I like you, you take it as if I'm kidding....” he said.
Then, Bianca looked at him again, and smiled sadly. “I'm sorry, Chunnie... it's just that... you know my stand when it comes to you, right? You're like my little brother. You're like my guy best friend... and I don't want to ruin it. I don't want anything to change between us...” she said. Chun face turned into a sad expression. “Can't... can't we be more than friends? Can't... can't we make a change between us?” he asked. Bianca smiled at him. Then, she held his hand. “I am more comfortable with our friendship, Chun. As they said, boyfriends come and go, but friends will always stay. It's better that way, Chunnie... and I... I don't want to hurt you in the end.” she said. “Bianca, I'm willing to wait until you have gotten over Matt. I'm willing to wait till you're ready to love again, Bianca... just give me a chance...” he said. Bianca lowered her head, and slowly shook her head. “I'm sorry, Chun... it's just that... I met someone new... and I like him a lot...” she said.
Chun felt his world crash down on him when Bianca told him that. “Oh...” he said sadly. He was defeated even before he could make his move, and it's already too late for him to win Bianca's heart, for someone new have taken her completely.
Ella and Sphinx were strolling by the garden, when Ella saw a pink butterfly flying around. “Look, Sphinx! There's a butterfly!” she said. Sphinx watched her as she chased after the butterfly. It landed on one of the roses planted on the garden, and Ella walked up to it. She placed her finger on the rose, and then let the butterfly sit on her finger. She watched it with awe, and Sphinx could see her eyes sparkle as she looked at the butterfly. He smiled to himself, seeing how happy his best friend is. “I wish I could always see you this happy, Ellie...” he thought.
“Sphinx?” Ella called. Sphinx walked up to him, still smiling at her. “Yes, Ellie?” he asked. “I forgot, you're supposed to say something to me, right? That's why you asked me out...” she said. Sphinx nodded his head. He took her hand, and looked into her eyes, and Ella smiled to him. “This is it. This is it.” she kept on telling herself. With his mere touch, she could feel her heart racing against her chest. She could feel her cold and clammy hands against his warm skin. He was shimmering under the sun, too bright for her that her eyes could be blinded by his smile. And she only had her eyes on him the whole time, just him, only him. “We've been best friends for so long, right?” he began. Ella nodded her head. “And all these times, you have always been there for me. You were there when I was brokenhearted. You have seen my ups and downs... and I'm so thankful that I met someone as wonderful as you are, Ella.”
He paused, and then he took a deep breath before speaking again. “I know I've said this a thousand times before, but you know that I'm only after your happiness. And I know that you are also after my happiness as well...” he said. “Of course, Sphinx. I'll do everything to make you happy.” she said. “Ella, the truth is these past few days, I'm feeling really really happy. I don't know... it's like something or someone have always been making me smile...” he said. Ella just smiled at him. “I am the one who's making him smile, right? He's talking about me...” she thought. “Just then, I realize that the reason why I am happy is because I am in love...” Sphinx continued. Still, Ella smiled at him. “This is it! He's going to tell me he is in love with me!” she thought.
Then, Sphinx held both of her hands, and looked into her eyes. “I am in love... Ella...” he said. Ella smiled and nodded her head. “I... I know. I am -”
“I am in love with someone I just met.”
Sphinx smiled, but Ella could feel her own smile slowly fading. It was a big blow for her. She could hear her own heart finally crashing and being torn into several pieces. She have expected that today, Sphinx will tell her that he loves her too, but she was wrong. He told her that he is in love with another. “Ellie, she is the most wonderful girl I've met. She is as pretty, as cheerful as you are. Actually, the two of you are really alike.” he said. Ella turned away from him for she was fighting the tears from her eyes. “W-we are alike?” she asked, wiping the tear from her eye. “Yes. Maybe that's the reason why I fell in love with her even more. It was love at first sight for me, Ellie... but when we started going out and after I get to know her better... I don't know... I just fell so hard for her.” Sphinx said happily.
Ella composed herself before facing Sphinx again. As she turned to face her best friend, she faked a smile. “I'm happy for you, Sphinx.” she said. “I really am. I wish you and the girl all the luck.” she said. Sphinx smiled, and nodded his head. “I just don't know if she feels the same way, but she seems to be enjoying my company. One day, I would like you to meet her. I'm sure you're going to like her.” he said. Ella just nodded her head. “I hope to meet this girl soon.” she said. Then, Sphinx hugged her. “Thanks, Ellie. I know you will be happy for me...” he said. Ella bit her lips as she hugged Sphinx back. “Sphinx, why can't you love me instead? Why do I always have to wait in vain for your love?” she thought.
It was evening, and Ella walked back to her apartment after her “date” with Sphinx. She let out a sigh upon remembering just what happened that day. She stopped in front of her house. As she paused, she saw Chun sitting by the door, his head hanging low. “What's with this chicken face?” she thought. Then, Chun looked up at her, and he saw the sadness in her eyes. “Anything wrong, Ms. Piggy?” he asked. Ella let out a sigh. “I have no energy to argue with you, Chun. Please leave me alone, OK?” she said. She went inside her house, and headed straight to her room, ignoring Selina and Hebe's questions about her date with Sphinx.
As she reached her room, she lay down her weary body on the bed. She stared into nothingness for a while, and then he felt the tears she was holding back a while ago cascading endlessly from her eyes. Her heartbreak is too painful that it made her too numb to feel anything. “Why? Why do you always have to hurt me like this, Sphinx?” she thought as she cried. “Why can't you love me the way that I love you? Why do you chose to ignore my feelings? Do you know how much it hurts? It hurts like hell... and it's killing me inside...” she thought. She clutched onto her pillow, and buried her face as she cries out all the pain she is feeling inside.
Meanwhile, Chun have retreated back to his room as well. He lay his tired body onto his bed, and let out a big sigh. “I'm too late...” he said to himself. If he was brave enough before to tell Bianca how he felt, then maybe she would have accepted him and would not fall in love with the guy she just met. But then again, he knew right from the start that Bianca only treats him as her little brother, nothing more, nothing less. He knew before that if he confessed his love for her, she would reject him. He have readied himself for her rejection, but he have not anticipated the pain her rejection will bring.
He looked at the side table beside his bed, and saw a picture of him and Bianca together. He took it, and looked at it closely. “Bianca, why can't you love me? Am I not enough for you? I can love like any other man could...” he thought. Then, he looked outside the window. He saw Ella lying on her bed, with her face buried on her pillow. He stood up, and walked to the window to have a closer look at her. “Are you crying, Ella?” he asked. “Are you crying because you got rejected as well? Just like me?” he asked again. Then, he smiled sadly, and shook his head. “I don't think you're crying because of him. Your best friend is a lucky guy because you love her. I can tell he loves you too... unlike me...” he said. He lowered his head, and then he felt a tear falling from his eyes. “Bianca could never love me...” he said. Then, he closed his eyes, and let the tears cascade from his eyes.
“They say that when you fall, the only thing to do is stand up again. But what would you do if the one you have loved for a long time have rejected you? What would you do if you have waited a long time to tell someone that you love them, only to find out that they could never love you back? Welcome to 'The Love Corner' and this is DJ Angel, giving you more love advices from 9 AM to 12 PM. If you have experienced being rejected, please do call us in, and share your experience with us. Who knows, telling your story with us might help those people who are feeling low as well. And before we begin, I'm going to play an old hit from N'Sync, “Selfish”.” Ella pressed on the play button, and let the lonely song play on air. As she looked outside the glass window of the DJ's booth, she saw Sphinx looking at her. Ella looked away from him, avoiding his looks. Good thing her assistant came in to give her the materials she needed for the show. Sphinx could only sigh as he walked away from the booth. It's been days since they last talked, and he felt that Ella is avoiding her for no apparent reason. Well, Ella do have reasons. He have hurt her feelings when he told her that he is in love with someone else. And it's Ella's fault anyway. She have assumed that Sphinx feels the same way for her, and she expected something more from him.
Chun sat on his kitchen, staring on the cake that he just baked. He was just waiting for it to cool down before he could ask Ethan to decorate it. He was not in the mood for anything these past few days, especially with working. Bianca's rejection had this big effect on him, and it's frustrating him so. As he turned the radio on, he heard DJ Angel talking about rejection. And then, the lonely song played. Then, he took out his phone, and started to dial the hotline for the radio station. “Wait, why am I calling that Ms. Piggy? What if she humiliates me on air?” he thought. Then, he shook his head, and decided not to call. Then, he heard DJ Angel speak again, and he could sense the sadness in her voice. “I think I'll just use a fake name so that he won't know it's me.” he thought. He began to dial the number again, and after a few ring, someone picked up the phone.
“And we have caller number 1 on the line. Hello, caller number 1.” Ella said. “H-hi DJ Angel.” Chun said. “Hi, may I know your name?”
“I'm Ch- I mean, you can call me Mystery Guy.”
“All right Mystery Guy, do you have anything to share to us about being rejected by the one you love?”
“I sure do...”
Chun smiled sadly as he recalled what happened the other day when he confessed his love to Bianca. “I... I've been in love with this girl for a long time. She was like my best friend... I've been hesitating to tell her how I feel because I wasn't brave enough to tell her that I love her...” he said. Ella paused as she listened to her caller's story,. She then remembered her own love story. “G-go on...” she said. “She was supposed to be married to another guy, but the guy broke up with her, and I thought, hey this is my chance to be with her.” Chun said. Ella shook her head. The guy on the line was telling her her own story. His story is really familiar to her. “Then, she came to me, crying. I was there to help her heal her heart, to make her smile. Then, I gathered up all my courage to tell her how I feel. But she told me she can only love me as her brother. And... and that...”
Chun could feel his own voice faltering as he told his story. “Go on, Mystery Guy.” Ella said. “She said she found someone new, and that she likes him a lot...” he said. Ella slumped on her chair. She was about to cry for his story is somewhat similar to what had happened to her. “That really hurts, right? You loved someone for so long, and when you gathered the courage to tell them how you feel, and then you found out that they are in love with someone else...” she said. “You got it right, DJ Angel. It really hurts.” Chun said. “But you know what, maybe there is a bigger reason why she rejected you. God may have a reason why the two of you can't be together. And maybe one day we will realize what that reason is...” she said.
Chun just realized that when he talked Ella, he became more confident and optimistic about what happened to him, “I believe in that, DJ Angel, and you know what, as long as she and that new guy is not yet together, then I will do everything I could to prove to her that I do love her.” he said. Ella smiled to herself. Somehow, she learned something from her caller. “I'll prove to her that I'm worthy of her.” Chun continued. “That's the spirit.” Ella said.
Labels: fan fic, Me And The Boy Next Door