Tuesday, March 17, 2009

99 Paper Cranes - Chapter 10

Chapter 10 – Her Worst Nightmare



“I'll go get our orders.” Calvin said to the two girls. He stood up from his seat, and then went to the counter to get their food. Kit and Trixie were left on the table, awkward silence surrounding them. “Uhmmmm...” they both said, trying to start up a conversation. Kit doesn't know what to say to Trixie. She didn't know if whatever she says would interest her. She have to e really nice to Trixie, especially now that she's already Calvin's girlfriend. “So, how's things between you and Cal?” she finally managed to ask. Trixie just smiled at her. “We're doing OK. We just need more time with each other...” she said, hinting about something. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “I understand. Don't worry, I'll make sure he'll have a lot of time for you.” she said. Trixie just smiled at her. “Actually, I'm thinking if you could get out of our way...” she thought. “Trixie,” she heard Kit call. She looked at her, then she held her hand. “Thank you for loving my best friend. I hope you will take care of him, and not hurt him...” she said. “Don't worry about a thing, Kit. I'll take care of Calvin. I'll take care of him the way you do.” she said. Kit smiled upon hearing that. At least now, she's assured that Trixie would be there for Calvin now. She decided to give way to her, after all, she can't always be at Calvin's side all the time. “Thank you, Trixie...” she said. “Don't mention it....” Trixie answered. Then, Trixie looked at Calvin who was walking back to their seat with their food. Inside her mind, she was thinking of something else. “I will surely take care of him, especially after I make you leave him...”

--

Calvin drove Kit home that night. He stopped the engine of his car as soon as they reached her house. “Hey, thanks for the ride.” Kit said to him. “Don't mention it. As if I'm not always driving you home.” he said. Then, he smirked at her. “Ask your dad to buy you a car for your birthday, OK?” he said. Kit just laughed at him. “Ha ha. I knew you're already tired of driving me from school. Don't worry, starting tomorrow, I'll ask Danson to drive me to school.” she said. Calvin just smiled at his best friend. “If I hadn't known the two of you, I'd be thinking, something's going on between the two of you. You guys seems to be really close lately...” he said. Then, he looked at her, wrinkling his eyebrow. “Are you planning to make him your best friend now?” he asked. Kit simply laughed at him again. “Of course not!”
“Or are you planning to make him your boyfriend?”
“Definitely not. I only see him as a friend, and he's like just being too friendly...”
Calvin smirked at her again and scratched his chin. “Being too friendly, huh? I don't think that's the case...” he said. “Of course, he's just being friendly...” she said defensively. “You like someone else, huh?” he asked. Kit blushed upon hearing his question. “I do...” she said in a low voice. Calvin's face lightened up as she answered. “Aha! Is this Chun? I heard he's already converted back to being a straight guy...” Kit shook her head. Calvin gave her a confused look. “There is someone else?” he asked. Kit nodded her head. “Is he someone I know?” he asked. He was surprised that his best friend is starting to like someone, and he didn't even know it. “No, you haven't met this guy...”she said. Then, she looked up at him. “Remember the little boy I've been telling you about? The one I saved at the beach?” she asked. “Oh, no! Not him! Kit, there is no way you'll ever see that Jay again. You didn't have any info about that guy. And besides, maybe he already have a girlfriend.” he said, feeling jealous about it. Kit smiled to herself. Sometimes, she wonder why Calvin would suddenly become jealous whenever she talks about Jay. Maybe it's because Calvin have been used to be her only guy best friend. “Maybe he's still single, and handsome...” she said. “You can date other guys except for that Jay guy. Not him. I don't like him...”
“You haven't even met him yet! And besides, it's been ten years since we last saw each other... so don't be jealous about him already, OK?”

Calvin looked at her and smiled. He told himself a thousand times that if a day would come and someone would court Kit, that someone would have to face him first and pass to his standards. After all, the last person he wanted to see hurt is Kit. If one day, Jay would come back, well, it's a different story. He have been jealous of this Jay because he have always thought that he is Kit's other guy best friend. Selfish, yes, he is very selfish when it comes to his best friend. “I think you should start dating, Kit...” he said. “I have plans to. Right after my 19th birthday, I'll star accepting suitors...” she said. Then, he looked at her again. “Except for that Jay guy, OK?” he said. Kit couldn't help but laugh at his reaction about Jay. “OK, OK, except him. But promise me, on my birthday, you'll spend the entire day with me just like before...” she said. Calvin nodded his head. “Of course, I will...” he said. “I'll spend your 19th birthday with you, and your 20th, your 21st, until your 100th birthday, I'll spend it with you.” he promised. Kit smile and shook her head. “You don't need to spend every birthdays with me starting next year. You already have Trixie, and maybe next year I might already have a boyfriend. I'd rather spend it with him...” she said. “OK, I understand. By the way, where do you want to spend your birthday?”
“You know the newly opened amusement part at the south? I want to go and see it...”
“OK, it's a date.”
Kit smiled at him. Then, she leaned over him, and kissed him on the cheek. “Thanks, Cal. I'll see you tomorrow, OK? Night.” she said. Then, she got out of the car. After Kit kissed him, Calvin was stunned. He felt something with her kiss... something that he's not suppose to feel for his best friend...

--

“Happy Birthday!” Danson shouted as soon as he saw Kit at the lobby. Kit looked at him, and smiled. “Thanks, Danson... but tomorrow's my birthday. Not today.” she said. Danson just smiled at her. “Nevertheless, it's your birthday week. Hey, I got you something...” he said. He reached for his bag, and took a gift box and handed it to Kit. Kit took it, and opened it. She saw a pink teddy bear inside. “Wow... this is cute!” she said. She looked up at Danson and smiled at him. “Thank you, Danson!” she said. Danson smiled back at her. “No problem.” he said. He put his arm around her, and they walked together through the lobby. “So, how will you be spending your birthday tomorrow? Are you going to throw a party?” he asked. Kit shook her head. “Whenever it's my birthday, I spend it with Calvin. We would go to somewhere where we've never been before.” she said. Danson was disappointed upon hearing her answer. “Oh...” he said. He was planning to ask her out on her birthday, and maybe confess his lover for her. “Why do you ask?”
“So you and Calvin will be out the whole day?”
“I think we'll be back by late afternoon... we'll just be going at the amusement park tomorrow.”

Danson smiled upon hearing that. “Here's my chance...” he thought. Then, he turned to her. “Kit, will you go out on a dinner with me?” he asked. Kit gave him a confused look. “Dinner? I'll be having dinner with my family tomorrow night...” she said. “After the dinner? Let's go out. My treat. I just want to tell you something tomorrow...” he insisted. Kit shrugged, and smiled at him. “OK. I'll go out with you after our family dinner.” she said. Danson was very happy, and his heart felt like it's fluttering. “Thanks, Kit. I promise. I'll make tomorrow night your best birthday ever!” he said as he hugged her tight.

--

Trixie and her friends (Rina and Ashley) were seating at the bleachers, watching Calvin's soccer practice. Trixie was waiting for Calvin so that they could go home together. “Hey, I heard it's the BFF's birthday tomorrow.” Ashley told Trixie. “Oh really?” Trixie said, not taking her eyes off . Ashley nodded her head. “And I heard Calvin and Kit already have plans for tomorrow. I think they're going out tomorrow...” she continued. Then, Trixie looked at Ashley. “Uh-oh, the BFF got one point again...” Rina said. Trixie was a little annoyed with that. Why didn't Calvin told him that he have plans for tomorrow? “I need to think of a plan...” she said. Then, something hit her. She let out a smile, and then looked at her friends. “I think I got it covered...” she said to them. “Too bad, the BFF will have to spend her birthday alone...”

--

After his soccer practice, Calvin met up with Trixie at the parking lot. “Good thing you already came...” she said as soon as he saw him walking towards her. Calvin smiled at her, and then gave her a kiss on the cheek. “Something wrong?” he asked. “Grandma and grandpa wants me to look after their rest house at the north. They want me to go there now...” she said to him. “OK, I'll drive you home -”
“But I have to get there by 9. They'll be calling me from there, to see if I really came there.”
Calvin gave his girlfriend a confused look. “It's already 7 PM.” he said, looking at his watch. “Do you think you could still make it? Can't they call you at your mobile?” he asked. Trixie shook her head. “They want me there tonight. Can you drive me?” she asked in a sweet tone. “But, baby, I don't have extra clothes with me, and I have to tell my parents first.” he excused. “Don't worry, I have told you folks about it and they're cool with it...”
“They are?”
“Of course. I told them you'll be with me, so they said yes right away.”
“You don't understand. I need to meet up with Kit tomorrow -”
“We'll be back tomorrow morning. I promise.”

Calvin just sighed. He couldn't resist his girlfriend after all. “OK. I'll go with you there. Just promise me we'll head home tomorrow morning, OK?” he said. Trixie nodded her head. Then, she hugged him and kissed him on the lips. “Thank you baby! You're the best boyfriend in the whole wide world!”

--

“I'll see you at the park entrance tomorrow morning. I'm spending the night at Trixie's place.” Kit read Calvin's text message again that night. When she received that, she felt nervous and scared. She just have this gut feeling that her birthday tomorrow will not go as planned.

--

“We're the only people here?” Calvin said as they entered the rest house. Trixie nodded her head. She didn't bother turning the lights on. “Will your grandparents mind if I spend the night here with you?” Calvin asked nervously. Trixie shook her head. “They won't mind...” she whispered to his ear. Trixie's breath brought shiver to his body. He knew where this would all end up to. “O-OK...” he said. Trixie was amused with his nervous expression. “You're so cute... being nervous and all...” she said. Calvin blushed. He swallowed hard, hoping it would ease the nervousness he is feeling. “Nice place.” he said as he looked around the house. “So, how many rooms do we have here?” he asked, diverting to another topic. “Oh, we have around five rooms here...” Trixie said. Calvin sighed with relied upon hearing that. At least he won't have to sleep with Trixie in one room, because he's scared he might do something to her. “But I only got the key to the masters bedroom. The other rooms are locked.” she said. This time, Calvin felt really nervous. “Owwkeeey... so we'll be sleeping on the same room?” he asked. Trixie smiled seductively at her, and then leaned to him again. “Actually, we'll be sleeping on the same bed.” she whispered to him. Then, she held her hand, and lead him to the room. “Come on, let's take a little rest...” she said seductively. “I'll give you a massage after that long drive...”

--

The next day, Kit woke up early, had breakfast with her family, and prepared for her date with Calvin. She wore her pink dress, which made her look more prettier. Then, she headed to the amusement park. Patiently, she waited for Calvin outside. Two hours have already passed, and still no sign of him. She tried calling him on his mobile, but he was out of reach. He called his home, but his mom told him that he's not home yet. She have sent him numerous messages, but he have not replied to those messages. She still patiently waited for him, another two hours have passed. Then, suddenly is became dark. The rain started to fall from the sky. From a little drizzle, it began to rain cats and dogs. Kit found a shelter in a tree near the entrance, but she was still soaked. Still, she decided to wait for Calvin, still hoping he will not stood her up.

It was already afternoon, and Kit finally realized that Calvin would not be coming. He have broken his promise. It seems Calvin have forgotten all about it because of Trixie. Maybe, he's happy in the arms of Trixie right now. While he feels warm in the arms of his girlfriend, here she is, soaked, cold, and drenched in the rain. As she walked home, she felt the tears running down her cheeks. Good thing it's still raining, because no one could see her crying. She knew she should be ready for this. She knew should not be feeling hurt, but today is her birthday for Pete's sake. She never thought that Calvin would forget this day. She never thought that Calvin would rather spend this day with his girlfriend than with his best friend. “How could you do this to me? How could you forget your promise?” she thought. If Calvin was able to forget this day, it's not impossible that he would eventually forget her and their friendship. It's not impossible that he will take her for granted, and she will become the least of his priorities. Most of all, it's not impossible that she will eventually lose him. Right before her eyes, she's losing him, and there's nothing else that she could do. He is happy now with his paper crane girl, and it seems that his happiness now means that she's not part of it.

--

“Good afternoon, Mrs. Chen.” Danson greeted as soon as Calvin's mother opened the door. “Oh, hi, Danson. Come in.” Danson entered the house. “Auntie Chen, is Calvin around?” he asked. “Oh, he hasn't came back since last night...” Mrs. Chen said. Danson was surprised at what his mother said. “Since last night?”
“Yes. I think he and his girlfriend went north. I was trying to call him to remind him of Kit's birthday, but I couldn't reach him.”
“Calvin hasn't called since last night?”
Mrs. Chen nodded his head. “I don't know where he's been. I'm getting a little worried now with that boy...” Mrs. Chen said. Danson suddenly became worried as well. He wondered whatever happened to Kit. Good thing, Kit's family is the Chen's next door neighbor, so he said goodbye Calvin's mom and headed to Kit's house.

“Hi, Uncle Jin, is Kit home?” Danson asked as soon as Kit's dad opened the door. “She went to the amusement park with Calvin. He said he'll be meeting her there...” Mr. Jin said. This confused Danson even more. “But... Calvin didn't came home last night according to Auntie Chen...” he said. This made Kit's father worried. “What? Then where could Kit be? It's raining hard and she didn't even brought an umbrella with her!” Mr. Jin said. Danson gave Kit's dad an assuring smile. “Don't worry, Uncle Jin. I'll find her. I'll call you as soon as I saw her.” he said. Mr. Jin smiled at Danson. “Please do. Bring her home soon, her new car is waiting for her.”

--

It was still raining when Danson reached the amusement park. He looked around, searching for Kit, but the whole place seems empty. “Where is she?” he thought. He reached for his mobile phone, and dialed Calvin's phone. He was out of reach. Then, he dialed Kit's number. It was just ringing, and Kit's not answering it. “Kit, where are you?” he thought. He's already worried about her. If he only knew that Calvin would just stood her up, he should've accompanied her today. He could sense that Kit is hurt because Calvin forgot his promise and stood her up. He wanted to find her soon She might be lost and scared, for he knows Kit's scared of thunder. He wanted to embrace her and tell her everything is all right, he wanted to tell her his just here and he's willing to be Calvin's substitute. He just wanted to hug her, and assure her that he will never ever leave him, not the way her best friend did today.

He reached for his mobile phone again and began to call Jiro. He will definitely need help in finding her. “Hello, Jiro? It's me, Danson... I need a big favor... can you help me find Kit? She's missing...” he said. “OK, I'm on my way. I'll call you as soon as I see her...” he heard Jiro said. After Jiro hang up, he called Chun. He also asked him to help him look for Kit. Then, he called Hannah, asked her if Kit called her a while ago. “I was trying to call her to greet her a happy birthday... but she's not answering her phone.” Hannah said. “I see... Kit's gone missing. Hannah, if she calls you, please let me know...” he said. He threw his phone on the dashboard and drove away. Where else could he fin Kit at this very moment?

--

Calvin slowly opened his eyes. He looked outside the window, and saw it was cloudy outside. He looked beside her, and he saw Trixie sleeping peacefully in his arms, both of them, naked. He smiled as he brushed her hair, and kissed her on the forehead. Last night, he finally realized how much he love this girl. They spent the entire evening making love to each other, and for him, last night is the most memorable night in his entire life.

Carefully, he moved and reached for his phone. As he reached it, he was surprised to see that it was turned off. “I thought I left this on last night?” he thought. He turned his phone on, and he was surprised that it was already 2 in the afternoon. “Oh shit!” he thought. He was supposed to meet Kit at the amusement park at 10 AM. Suddenly, his phone beeped. Kit have sent several messages to him. He opened her messages and read it.

“Hey, I'm on my way. Don't be late.”
“Cal, I'm here at the entrance. I'll wait for you. Text me if you're on your way.”
“Bought us tickets already. Let me know if you're already here.”
“Cal, where are you? Still waiting for you here.”
“Cal, I'm trying to call you, but I can't reach you. Where are you? Text me if you're coming or not.”
“Calvin Chen, don't test my patience on you. Where the hell are you?!”
“Calvin, where are you? It's already raining, and I'm still waiting for you. Can you at least let me know if you're coming or not?”
“Cal, still waiting. I'm drenched here. I'll make you pay as soon as you get here.”
“Cal, please, let me know if you're coming. I felt like a fool here, waiting for nothing...”
“I guess you have forgotten my birthday. Thank you for not showing up.”
“I can't believe you stood me up, Calvin Chen!”
“I guess you have forgotten me after all... its the first time you broke your promise, and it hurts a lot, Cal. I thought you promised that you would not forget me, and I would still be your priority no matter what... guess I was a fool to believe you...”

Calvin felt guilty upon reading her messages, especially the last one. Since they were kids, they're used to spending their birthdays together, and this is Kit's first birthday that he was not there. Suddenly, his phone rang. Danson's name flashed on the screen. He immediately answered the call. “Hello?”
“Calvin, where are you?”
“I... I'm still with Trixie. We're here at their rest house...”
“Don't tell me you have forgotten Kit's birthday?”
Calvin wasn't able to answer his question. He heard Danson sigh at the other line. “Kit must've been waiting for you for a long time at the amusement park. It's raining hard here, and she's not yet home!” Danson said in a worried tone. “She... she's not home?” Calvin asked. “Yes, she's not yet home and she's gone missing, asshole!” Danson shouted at him. Calvin could tell that Danson is furious at him. “Look, we're already looking for her. Jiro, Chun, Joy and Hannah are already helping me. Now, maybe you can do your part as her best friend and find her as well.”
“O-OK. I'm on my way...”
“And one more thing...” Danson said. “Remember this, if you do this again in the future, I will never forgive you, Calvin Chen.” After saying that, Danson hang up the phone.

Calvin was stunned after that call. His best friend is missing, and he can't even do anything about it. He looked outside, and saw that its starting to rain. Calvin could here the thunder from outside. “She's lost, and she might be scared...” he thought. After a while, Trixie woke up. “Hey, baby...” she said groggily. He just looked at Trixie. “Anything wrong?” she asked. “I... We need to go home now. Kit's missing...” he said. Then, he stood up from the bed and put on his clothes.

--

Kit was walking through the park. This was the park where she and Calvin used to go to when they were kids. She looked at the swing, and then she remembered the first time they saw each other. When they first met, she was being bullied by some boys. One of them took her lollipop, and the other pulled her pig tails. Calvin came to her rescue and fought those bullies. Since then, they became friends, and Calvin promised that he will always stay by her side to protect her. Now, it seems that his promise have been forgotten.

She continued to walk. She felt cold, for she have been drenched in the rain the whole time. There was nothing left to do but to go home and celebrate her birthday without him. As she was about to cross the street, she suddenly felt dizzy, It seems that the whole place was in a turn table. Everything turned blurred, as if everything was fading before her eyes. The last thing she saw was a flash of light, before she lost her consciousness.

--

Jiro stopped his car as soon as he saw Kit cross the street. He was about to get out of his car, when he saw her fell on the ground. “Kit!” he shouted. He immediately run towards her and carried her. He could feel her body trembling. “Calvin...” he heard her say. He cupped her chin, and tried to wake her up. “Kit... wake up...” he said. No matter how hard he tried to wake her, she just didn't. “Maybe she was tired waiting for Calvin.” he thought. He immediately took her inside his car, and then, he called Danson. “Hello, Danson. I found her. I saw her by the park. She was drenched in the rain, and trembling... I think she's running a fever. I'll send her home now, OK? I'll see you at her house.” he said. Then he ended the call. “Calvin... don't leave me...” he heard her say again. Jiro shook his head. “She must be dreaming.” he thought. Then, as he started the engine of his car, he heard her say something again. “Jay...”

He looked back at her. He felt his heart beating faster. Jay was his secret nickname when he was a kid, and it seems that Kit just called him. “Could she be... could she be Tin?” he thought. His mind were suddenly filled with that memory from that summer when he met her. It seems that he have found Tin all this time, but he have never acknowledged her presence. He was waiting for her to call Jay again, but then, he heard her call Calvin's name all over again. Jiro just shook his head, and then sighed with relief. “I must've mistaken her call... it's still Calvin that she's calling.” he thought. Then, he began to drive her home.

--

Danson ended the call and went to the living room, where Kit's family, as well as Hannah and Joy, were waiting. “They found her.” he said. He saw her mom and dad sighed with relief. “Thank God...” Mr. Jin said. “At least Jie Jie could eat the cake I baked!” her little sister, Annie, said. “Who found her?” Joy asked Danson. “Jiro did. He saw her at the park.” he said. Joy smiled at him, then he looked at Hannah and smiled at her as well. “Well, I think you guys should all stay for dinner. Let's have this little party for Kit, OK?” Mr. Jin said. Then, Mrs. Jin stood up from her seat. “I think I'll call the Chens as well and invite them. Calvin must be home already.” she said. Then, she went to the kitchen to call their next door neighbor.

Hannah saw the anger in Danson's eyes upon hearing Calvin's name. He's really mad at him for standing up on Kit. She stood up, and put her arm on his shoulder. “Hey, just be cool with it. Calvin's still Kit's best friend, OK? He must have his reasons why he didn't came...” he said. Danson looked at her, and nodded his head.

Just then, Jiro came inside, carrying Kit in his arms. “Kit!” Hannah and Joy both shouted as soon as Jiro came in. She was sleeping like a child, and she was trembling. Mrs. Jin immediately came. “I found her at the park. She was too drenched, I think she's running a fever...” Jiro said. Danson came to him and tool Kit in his arm. “Auntie Jin, where's Kit's room?” he asked. “Follow me...” she said. Then, all of they went up to her room.

--

Kit slowly opened her eyes, to find her family and friends inside her room. “Happy Birthday!” they all shouted. Kit sat up on her bed and smiled at them. “Thank you, guys...” she said. Then, the tears can't help but fall from her eyes. Calvin's not here, but here are her family and close friends, celebrating her birthday with her. “You had us worried today...” Danson said to her. “I'm sorry...” she said in a low voice. Danson shook his head and smiled at her. “Not your fault. It's Calvin's fault.” he said.

“Well,” they heard Chun said. “Now that the celebrant is awake, can we already have a taste of Mrs. Jin's ever famous dishes?” Jiro glared at him and smacker him on the head. “Can't you think of anything else other than food?” he asked. Mr. and Mrs. Jin just laughed at the two. “Honey, are you OK now?” Mr. Jin asked Kit. Kit nodded her head. “I'm OK. Let's go downstairs and start the party.” she said as she stood up from her bed.

--

Her friends have already left after having dinner. Kit and Danson went outside the house to watch the four (Chun, Jiro, Joy and Hannah) leave. After they left, Danson faced Kit. “So how was your birthday?” he asked. Kit tried to smile at him, but she just couldn't. “It's not a happy birthday after all...” she said in a low voice. “It's the first time that Calvin's not here to celebrate with me... I guess I have to get used to it...” she continued. Then she looked up at him. “It still hurts, you know...” she said. Danson could see the tears forming at the corner of her eyes. He held her hand to comfort her. “Kit...” he said.

Like broken strings
Disappearing amongst the crowd
My eyes have finally lost
Your face

“I... I wish I could do something for you...” Danson said in a low voice. Kit smiled and nodded her head. “There's one thing that you can do, Danson...” she said. Danson looked at her. “You can let me cry on your shoulder...” she said. Danson nodded her head. “You can always cry on me...” he said. Then, Kit put her head on his shoulder and began to cry. Danson felt his heart breaking as he hear her soft sob. If only he could take away the pain she was feeling right now, he would do it, but the only thing he could do for her is be her friend and comfort her.

Just wait a moment more
Desperately hoping for a shooting star to come
If wishes do really come true

Calvin was holding a paper bag and a bouquet of peach roses, which is Kit's favorite flower. He was hoping he could still make it up to her. He knows when she's mad at him, she would not face him, but he's still hoping he could see her tonight to give her gift, and to greet her. He's ready to face Kit's wrath, after all, it was his fault that he stood her up.

He stood before their gate. As he looked up, the smile on his face disappeared. He saw Kit by the door and she was not alone. He saw her in Danson's arm.

Can love be forever
Tomorrow may come too late
But the yesterday that we have walked together
Is distancing further and further away

Danson put his arm around Kit. The pain that Kit is feeling now, he's feeling as well. He couldn't stand seeing the girl a love being hurt, and it hurts him as much as it hurts her. “You can always share your pain with me, Kit...” he whispered to her. Then, he leaned to her, and softly planted a kiss on her forehead. “I will never hurt you... I will never be like Calvin. I will never ever leave your side...” he said. Then, he continued listening to her soft sob.

Tears from Polaris
An unspeakable longing
I've finally realized we live in two different worlds

He have always wanted the feeling of being wanted and needed. He have always played the knight in shining armor in Kit's life. He have always been the one that she turns to when she wanted to cry, when she is hurt, when she is in pain. He didnt know why, but Calvin suddenly felt jealous at the sight of her in Danson's arm. He have always been her dependable best friend, the one who have always been there for her, but on this special day, he have let Kit down.

Calvin lowered his head. He turned around to leave, finally admitting defeat. Danson has always been around Kit, and even though Danson would not say it, he's aware that he have secretly loved Kit. He could never take care of her, not anymore. Maybe Danson is more suited to be her best friend than him, or even more suited to be her boyfriend. Kit have always been there for him, have always helped him, but he have not done anything that made her happy, not even on her birthday.

He took a step, then he looked back at the two. That moment, he realized, he's not suited to be her best friend anymore. Someone else is willing to take care of Kit. Someone have already taken his place...

Tears from Polaris
Your red swollen eyes after crying
A soaked promise
Drowning inside my heart
I raise my head and find that love is gone

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